What's on my mind

Alone but not lonely

It's all in the mind ika nga. Sabi nga dun sa napanood ko imbis na maglukmok ka sa kalungkutan eh libangin mo sarili mo. In my case I love playing games that really takes all your time without noticing it but as we age we figure out na those precious time of our childhood can be rewritten and that's why I want to spwnd my time wisely. I want to do things that my future self will benefit.

Like exercise, sa sobrang busy ko sa kakalaro 'di ko napansin na napapabayaan ko narin ang aking kalusugan. I'm starting atleast 25mins exercise daily. Pero syempre may time na tinatamad ako kaya binabawi ko nalang sa ibang bagay kagaya ng paglilinis ng bahay.

Napansin ko nung naglalaro ako nasasagot ko ng 'di maganda ang aking magulang dahil ayaw ko paabala pero ngayon since I stop playing addicting games may time na ko to help chores in the house and I'm happy doing it. Since I benefit like learning things I really don't know. It also help my future self to harvest all the benefits like learning new things and became responsible person.

I still play pero yung mga walang attendance or modded app para 'di na ko magpakahirap sa kakagrind.

I'm doing things that keep me busy but thinking how my future self will benefits on those things I'm doing right now. Since I'm regretting lots of my previous action insted of regretting I do the things I think I need to do so if ever I'll regret again it's just not that serious that will keep me at bay.

Dami ko parin gusto isulat parang kanina may naisip na naman akong story line na kasunod nung isa sa mga naisip kong story line tsaka yung before nun. Hilig ko talaga pagdugtungin ung mga bagay since naaamaze ako sa mga story na magkakasunod na mapapa Ahhh kaya pala ka nalang after mo maipagdugtong dugtong ang story.

Ito ngayon nag-iisa sa kwarto nangungulila pero that's how life. If ikekwento yung story ng buhay ko atm it will bore people, that's why Im avoiding talking much for now since I need to understand and know myself more rather than knowing them.

I also avoiding facebook. I just check my notification check inbox and close the facebook. Sometimes I still scrolling but if I spot a toxic post I immediately close the app. Kung baga kasi parang usok ng sasakyan yung mga toxic post alam mong andoon tapos lalanghapin mo parin?
After this I observed myself. Mas ok nga 'di basahin kasi in the 1st place hindi ka naman involve doon.

I still check my Instagram it's a better platform to begin with but kinda addicting so I just check and leave.

Now I have more time for myself and family. I also have more time to watch my daily anime/kdrama/jseries and movies to gather more ideas into my future writing self.

Sayang nga eh umulan kasi kanina kaya hindi na naman ako nagkaprogress sa balak kong story pero soon I will publish it :) napaikot ko na ung background eh kaya ung storyline nalang nung bida ung kailangan kong pag-isipan.

Oh diba hindi naman natin kelangan maging lonely kahit alone tayo. Ibahin lang natin yung mga daily activities natin  and lets find the happiness we want instead of finding the true happiness.