dear,
something is different in the air. i feel the distance, pessure, erves, uneasyness, confusion, all in one. you're not the one and if you aren't whats the point of all this? i don't get what you want from me but i know its not what i am willing to give. all these things i'm hearing confuse me. more mixed signals.
there is doubt clouding my mind but i don't know where to place it. i wish i laughed more, i wish that i didn't feel pressured to answer or that i wanted to call you. i wish talking with you didn't feel lke a burden. i wish i got butterflies when i saw you. i wish it was overwhelming, your presence.
but what ifi end it. what happens then? everyone at school hates me? all your friends give me dirty looks because i did you bogus? i don't want that.
at the same time i can't force myself into something uncomfortable because of peer pressure. i have moral that i need to keep.
YOU ARE READING
if i knew
Romanceim kinda of all over the place. writing helps me express my thoughts that i can't tell anyone else. i have a big heart so it gets broken alot. i hope you enjoy my contribution. enjoy.
