N.Flying Imagines

Hun 🥔 I'm Okay

6/6/19
1073 words
first person
angst

Today was my first date with Hun, I've had a crush on him for quite a while and when he asked me on a date, I took the opportunity or else I would regret this moment badly.

He was just perfect, he could play the guitar, his voice is so soothing, he's great with cats and that's all I could ever ask for in a boy.

I was just so excited and wanted to be there at the amusement park earlier so I can somewhat surprise him? I don't know, my conscious is just telling me to go there early so he'll be surprised.

I woke up at 9AM, I overslept a bit but that's okay since our date starts at 2PM. Since I still had a lot of time, I decided to use this time to get myself ready for the date. It was my first ever date and I wanted to look my best.

I already had a outfit planned out so this date should be perfect.

ヾ('ω'　)/~~~

Hours passed and here I am still thinking about what the hell I'm going to wear.

I changed my outfit last minute because I thought that it was too feminine.. I mean I like to look girly but the fact that I'm wearing a tight dress and flats to an amusement seems weird.

So I just decided to wear a spring jumper and a jean jacket as well as running shoes so it'll be comfortable when we walk around.

It was already 1PM and Ieft my house already so I can get there earlier than he can.

Taking the train to the park was boring but I knew that this would be worth it. The weather was perfect, everyone was happy. What could go wrong?

I arrived, bought the ticket and went inside. We both agreed to buy our own tickets since we kept arguing that we would buy the tickets.

I entered the park and looked at the amazing different rides, imagining Hun and I having fun and smiling.

Today was gonna be a memorable day.

I looked around and decided that I needed to use the washroom, good thing I came early so I can be prepared before he comes.

I trodded my way to the washroom building but stopped in my tracks once I saw Hun standing outside with a purse and plushies.

Was he playing games for plushies? Why did he come early? And why is he holding a purse?

I stood there while thinking for a while and I decided to text him and see his reaction once I texted him.

Me:
hey, i'm near the amusement park.
1:27PM

I looked up to see his reaction. He checked his phone and I saw his eyes slowly widen. He started typing and sent a message.

Hun:
Oh that's good, can you just wait outside the amusement park for a second? I have to something.
1:28PM

I don't know how lame that excuse was but I didn't answer and looked up to see another woman by his side. He seemed to explain the situation and gave her her stuff back. The girl gave him a quick kiss on the lip and I didn't know how to react. Should I go to him and yell? Should I slap Hun?

All those options were too extra for me to do. I didn't want to cause any commotions. My heart dropped and I wanted to get out.

I decided to leave. My whole day was ruined. I expected so many things, so many damn things. I expected to make happy memories but I guess luck wasn't on my side. It's never on my side.

I arrived home and put my purse on the couch. The tears didn't come out until I reached home, when I was alone. I kept getting texts from Hun asking me where I was but I just ignored those messages.

Am I overreacting? It's just a first date, right? Or was I expecting more than just a frienship? Maybe it's those friendly dates?

I didn't care, as long as I was alone then I'm okay.

I'm okay.

I lied, I lied to myself. I'm not okay.

I just let the tears fall out until I had none left.

With that, I checked my messages. It was currently 4:28PM. I should be at the amusement park enjoying my time with Hun.

I wish I didn't come there earlier, it's better to not know the truth than to know it.

But then again, knowing the truth is better than lying.

I just hated life at the moment.

Why was it me? Me whom always gets the bad luck?

I sighed and gulped down the last of my water. I decided to check the messages I got.

Hun:
Where are you?
2:02PM
Hun:
I've been waiting here for almost an hour.. I hope you'd come soon.
2:57PM
Hun:
Is something wrong? Are you sick? I'm about to leave so if you don't respond then I'm coming to your house.
3:29PM

Oh no hell no. He's not coming to my damn house. I'm not gonna let him. No liar dssveres to step foot into my house.

I ran to the door and locked it, hopefully he knows that I'm not home.

I don't wanna tell him where I am because he'd probably just go there anyways.

He seems like a loyal guy, well that's what I thought. He's not at all loyal.

I heard a knock at my door and I didn't dare open it. The knocking continued and I held my ears so I didn't hear the stupid knocking again.

My eyes began to get watery no matter how hard I tried to tell myself to stay strong.

I'm so stupid, I was completed dazed because of Hun.

Being in love hurts me.

The memories kept rewinding in my head.

I shouldn't have had my hopes high, because something unepexected could happen.

I took my hands away from my ears and couldn't hear the knocking anymore. He must've left. Good.

I stood up and peeked through the window.

Why would he come back for me?

I decided to text him one last time, before blocking his number.

Me:
I'm okay. Don't worry :)
4:02PM

I'm not okay.

~~~ヾ('ω'　)/~~~

this chapter shows that people can mask their feelings easily, so please keep an open mind :)