"nevermind" he smiled and immediately wiped of his tears that are about to fall "no it's okay tell me about it, everything" i smiled and held his hand
"well, my i used to be close.... really close with my parents but then lauren got to a car accident because of me, they blamed me for everything though my sister doesn't really mind on what happened on the past but my parents hates me up to this day they never talked to me if they would it would be just hurtful words, it was a tough time for me since i was just 12 i was hated by my parents who i thought loved me, i was" he paused and wiped a tear, i pat his back and console him
"....... depressed i would say, well until now but in the past it was worse..... oh god...... i cut myself every single time, i was close to killing myself but i lost my blade, i mean i could've bought one and end things easily but 13 year old johnny was dumb enough and decided to continue his life, when i transferred to a new school, this school i met nadia and my friends well i don't really know if they consider me as theirs but um yeah..... as just when i thought everything was going good, my parents decided to set me and nadia up for their business, she's pretty but she's not my type, and then i just decided to be a jerk all of a sudden i just make a whole another johnny the fuckboy one as you, well everyone would say" he chuckled
"it wasn't me, but at least i didn't felt really depressed, i changed but at home i didn't because of lauren, yes she was the reason why my parents hated me but she's the only person who loved me.... truly, i guess fucking girls made me happy temporarily, and bullying others to made them feel how i felt before, but at this point im just tired, tired of everything, myself..
my shitty life, im tired of pretending to be fine, to be happy, and to be satisfied" he took a breathe deeply i felt so sorry for him, i didn't know what he was going through is a lot
"then you...." he smiled softly and looked at my eyes "well i guess this is kind of cheesy to say but, then i met you, i would say my dream girl.... crazy for me to say people thought i had every girl which is kinda true, except the girl that i always been dreaming about i haven't met her until this day, she was nice, gorgeous, smart, strong, funny, brave, everything about her is perfect even her personality...... some people could really change your life crazy right? even though you don't talk or have any connection with that person, if you're in love, you are, i would always be lazy and tired for school simply continuing my life but that all changed because of her i don't know what's on her but everytime i look at her.... im happy, and that girl, is... its you" we both lost it we cried until we couldn't anymore
"you're bad you made me cry" i cracked a joke since our conversation a while ago is dark "i hate you, look my eyes are puffy ugh you made me ugly" i said rolling my eyes we both laughed
"you ugly? i didn't know you were such a liar" he chuckled "stop being so cute and nice" i threw a pillow on his face
"oh i guess it's a kindergarten's pillow party tonight" he laughed we threw pillows at each other, we laughed so hard after that and eventually we also got tired which lead us to sleeping and.... cuddling
S I D E N O T E :
this chapter: dark
did it make u cry probs not but i lowkey cried while crying also double update?! hahaha guess who's really motivated to update again oh and by the way i made this while listening to my depressing playlist aka "my while reading wattpad" playlist anyways have a good mf day ❤️
