Heart's Desire [ Min Yoongi FF ] ☑

Other Side Of The Coin

Beneath grassy soil
There lies an angel soul
With sparkly eyes
And soul stirring smile

Standing there in front of that grave , A stone engraved with letters that said

" Park Haneul 1995 - 2018 "

Linta had lost the count of how many times she had stood there but one thing was for sure new she didn't have tears

She crouched near the bottom of the grave , prayed for a while then stood up with a sough

After a long time her heart felt light , lighter than the clouds

She walked ahead passing by another familiar grave. She hadn't cry yet but if she go near to that grave she would must cry .

She didn't want to

She end with not to visit that grave , but when turning from the barricade she looked over her shoulder.

What she saw left her with shivers.

Girl earlier from the art room, snivelling .
A boy with pale white skin was standing beside , patting her shoulder.

Day 60 of 730

" Time flies really fast " she sent

" What do you mean? " he replied

" Nothing Google photos just sent me last year's memory when I had girl's day out with Haneul " she typed eyes heavy so her heart was

" It's better to delete her photos I have done the same " His replied

She read it from notification bar.

A rage built in her, she huffed in resentment .

She hadn't expected him to move on this early.

Okay it's good for him but how can he give Haneul's place to someone else.

" Are you sure you want to do this ? " she had asked him

When she asked him wheather he would be sincere with her friend

Kris , her university fellow .

" Don't worry I'll treat her the same as I have treated Haneul " he said assuring her

Darn it, she was pissed. She wasn't worried about her so call friend who ditched her boyfriend justbecause Yoongi was more good looking.

She was worried about him. That he was pushing himself.

But at the end of the day she hesitated to tell him that.

Day 100 of 730

It was the first time she was meeting Jimin in his clinic unlike before somewhere at food place or in cinema.

" Can you listen to me ? " she asked sitting on the chair

" That's what my job is about " Jimin said leaning a bit on the table , scooting on the edge of his own chair .

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Linta's standpoint

You might think Sehun was the only guy I have ever loved romantically right?

It's true.

He made my heart flutter nobody have ever did that.

But was I'm the happiest with him ?

No, not for too long, that happiness wasn't everlasting it was hollow.

The only guy who have ever made me genuinely happy was Yoongi.

But don't think I love him. No I don't.

He's my best friend.

How could I think about him in that way, it's wrong , right?

But what about this when he asked me my ideal type and I just described himself .

What about this when I think of my future I want it to be with him .

No, no don't ever mix it with love, because it's not.

I never felt jealousy when he was with Haneul.

I never felt jealous when he is with Kris.

But I did feel happy seeing him happy with Haneul.

And I do feel terrible when I see him frustrated with Kris.

I don't love him.

It's not love? Right.

What's the worst part you know?

I can't even tell him that . Fuck

He will judge my friendship .

I might end up loosing him.

I started feeling that way when I was eleven yeah! We were kids . But he made me happy . I wasn't sure of the feeling they weren't romantic even then.

It's just whenever I have thought of being happy it was always with him.

As we grew up the idea of being with him faded even more because he has treated me just as a friend.

We have shared our weirdest secrets
and I didn't have guts to tell him what I think.

Even at this point I don't know what do I really  want.

Day 120 of 730

" Can't you break up with her , she don't love you neither you then what's the point of fucking up peace of your mind? " she told  him gulping the shot of tequila

" Break up isn't my thing also I have vast temperament " he said sipping from his wine glass

" Yeah right just because Haneul think girls are fragile you are here sacrificing wow " she retorted, standing up from stool

" Why aren't you trying dating and stuff ? " he asked stopping her, grabbing her wrist

" Because you haven't found my ideal type " she said turning, leaning for, eyes darkened, flooded with alcohol

Before he could reply she vanished in the crowd.