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Part Eleven

  "I don't want to lose your face..I don't wanna wake up one day and not remember what time erased, and I don't want to turn around because I"m not scared of what love, gave me and took away, but I don't to loose your face." -Taylor Swift

Karlie's P.O.V

 No. no. wake up Karlie. Wake up. But I didn't. My family still stood with their phones, and their stupid smiles plastered across their face. Josh was rambling words but I didn't hear them, I couldn't, I wouldn't. My heart seemed to pick up its pace faster and faster, and suddenly I couldn't think. There wasn't enough oxygen to get to my head. Karlie breath. My thoughts were getting lost in the sea of thoughts and I would get snippets of them. 

Karlie breath. 

 "And you're the only one I want to spend--"

this isn't happening.

Why are they here?

My dad, he couldn't grin any bigger if he tried, and my mother looked as if she was about to cry. The room is becoming blurry--I'm crying, tears are fogging my vision. 

People are peering around the once privacy screen, and I can feel them behind me. 

Our waiter, he's standing to my left. 

 "I want to have little munchkins running around and to see..." 

  My head is getting heavier, everything seems like a dream. Like a haze that I can't shake. I can't even function properly --it's because I need to breath--breath. My Hazel eyes look for a sign this isn't real, searching every part of the room. 

Taylor. 

Taylor, she's standing there. I have to be dreaming. The blonde is standing behind Josh, and my eyes lock onto her blue ones. Her jaw is clenched--no she's not here. She can't be. No. She's not here-- I don't know where she is but she's not here.

Leave.  I beg from inside, but she's still there. My sister is nudging her arm and she says something but I can't hear it. 

 "Will you marry me?"

 My heart is racing a thousand beats per minute and suddenly the room goes quiet. If a fork had hit the carpeted floor  on the other side of the restaurant, I would have heard it. 

 "Honey..say yes.." I hear my mother whisper. 

 My mouth opens and words don't form immediately. Words get caught in the back of my throat and somewhere in between then and there a three letter word leaves my mouth and the room erupts in cheers and clapping. Everything around me is a blur and there is nothing I can do or say. I can hear my mother, I can hear my father. I can feel different people hugging me tightly and some part of me still manages to hug back. I must look bewildered, how do they not see it? How am I still standing? Is Taylor still there? I swing my head over to the direction she stood before but someone else gets my attention before my eyes have time to focus on what I had been looking for. 

  I feel a cold band slip onto onto my finger and I'm instantly pulled into his arms. I wrapped mine tightly around his waist, as hard as I could. Not because there was passion from deep with in me dying to come out from his fiance. Not because I'd just made the greatest decision of my life, or because I never wanted to forget this moment. No, it was because I went from feeling light weight, to dead weight and the man with his arms wrapped around wasn't the man of my dreams as my parents had set him up to be. 

  "Karls?" I think that's what he said. My grip is becoming weak, fingers loosen, and a sharp pain shots through my head before everything goes dark. It was just blank. I wish I could see her. I wished this was all a dream and when I opened my eyes, her fect would be right there, smiling that smile I'd never get enough of.