The Future

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Alex's P.O.V

On the way home, we don't talk much. George asks me about pontential reasons that could cause me to feel like crap and I try to calm him down, telling him that it might be a bug or just a side effect, since I'm waiting for my period

When we're home, I immediately go to take a shower. After that, I get dressed and go to the kitchen to find him

 After that, I get dressed and go to the kitchen to find him

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When I'm in the kitchen, I see him eating. Thank God I had cooked from the night before.

"Is it good?" I ask him, sitting across him

"It's always good! U're a great cook..." he answers with a full mouth and I smile

"I'm glad u like it! I hope I can eat it tomorrow too..."

"I'm sure u'll be better tomorrow... Want me to make u some tea?" he asks ready to get up

"No, no,I'll do it! Eat..." I tell him and get up. As I go behind him to the counter to boil water, I stop beside him and give him a long kiss on the cheek

"What was that?"he asks smiling turning his head to look at me

"Can't I kiss my husb- boyfriend?" I ask turning away, scolding myself for my mistake

"Of course u can!" he says, making me question if he heard me

"good..." I reply

When he's done, I take my tea and ask him to go sit on the couch

"Is everything OK?" he asks concerned

"Yes! I just want us to discuss something..."

"Ok..." he says and we sit down

"First I wanna ask u, how u're holding up with your murder case..."

"Trying...It's really hard to try to get her a good deal when I don't want her to get one. Thank God I don't have to defend her in open court!"

"Won't you?" I ask confused

"Well, I'll have to claim a shorter sentence due to her psychological problems or her serving her sentence in a psych facility. But I won't have to convince anyone for her innocence..."

"Oh... is there any chance that I will have to talk about my examination?"

"I don't think so... I think your report is enough!"

"U know, I was at the D.A's office this morning. He thinks I was too hard on her. He thinks I'm being biased..."

"Why would he think that?"

"Because of u... He thinks that since I know about you losing your son, it makes me emotional about it"

"Is he right?"

"No... Well, yes, I can't imagine how someone can be unbiased when their significant other has been through something like that, and it bothers me that u have to defend her, but it's like he's telling me I'm not good at me job!What I think has nothing to do with what I wrote in my report! Do I despise her? Yes! Do I wanna see her rotting in jail? Hell yeah! And if she was in a state of mind that would allow me to base her actions on it, I would be very happy, because that way I could have a reasonable explanation. But, now, I know she is a psychopath and dangerous!"

"Then let him think what he wants! U know what u're doing... I trust u!" he says and strokes my cheek

"Thank u..." I say and take a sip from my tea

"Is that what u wanted to discuss?"

"No, there's something else... And it's really not the best time, but if I wait for the best time it might never come!"

"Should I be worried?"

"Just a little... U see, I have this thing that I haven't told u, but now we're living together, we're building a life together and it's going great and I have to let u know about it..."

"U're scaring me..."

"No, no don't be scared! I just don't know how to start... I'll start with a question: When u think about the future, am I in it? Like in 10 years from now... Can u see us still being together?"

"Of course! I can't think of my life without you..." He answers and I smile

"And do u see us married with children?"

"As a matter of fact, I do! If u want too, of course..."

"So, u want children..."

"I'd love to! But again... If u want too..."

"I do! I really do... But there's a chance I won't be able to get pregnant..." I say and I see him freezing

"Are-Are u OK?"he asks coming closer with wide eyes

"Yes! There's just that chance... When I was with Christian I found out that I have endometriosis and that it will be hard for me to have children. And considering I'm pushing 30..."

"Hard or impossible?"

"Hard. And as I'm getting older, harder... But that doesn't mean we should rush! We still are very busy! I just found a job, we just moved in..."

"Yeah, sure we shouldn't rush. These things take time. But, even if we can't have children, it's ok! That won't change the fact that I love u..."

"Are u sure? Won't u leave me for someone who can give u a family?" I ask with a broken voice and with tears in my eyes

"What? No! Of course not!" He says and after taking my mug off my hands, placing it on the coffee table, he hugs me

"Why? U said u wanted children... What if I can't give them to u?"*sniff* U'll suppress your desires for me?"

"I won't suppress anything! I want to be with u and the fact that u might can't bare children is irrelevant! I'll be fine with just u! Why lose something good in order to get something else? It doesn't make sense! U're just as important to me! And, also, we have Tiff... She's like a baby and u know that... " he says and the addition at the end makes me laugh

"That's right! Laugh! I don't wanna see u crying, It breaks my heart..." he says raising my face to his

"I don't wanna lose u..." I say and sniff

"You won't! At least not for something like that... U're the first woman I let in after my wife's and son's death, I think that this counts for something..." he says wiping my tears

"It does! I promise u that I will do everything my doctor says when the time comes!"

"I'm sure u will baby... But don't worry about it now, OK? We still have time..."

"OK..."

"Thank u for telling me!"

"Of course! U had to know! I never told Christian, u know..."

"Why?"

"He is Latino... They have like 10 children! Imagine the shock in his family... But I guess that if we were still together and if the marriage was going well, I would be obligated to tell him..."

"I guess so to... But see? U didn't have to. And I'm glad u told me! That means we have something stronger than that..."

"Of course we do!" I say and we kiss. After that conversation, we decide to see a movie, but I fall asleep after half an hour

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