i never wanted to be thinking this loud - awsten knight x reader

~five~

awstens pov:
i get home after being at the mall with all my new friends, and go straight up to my room. i sit on the beanbag in the corner and reach for my guitar. i've got feelings for y/n. i need to turn them into a song. it's what i always do. i have to otherwise my mind becomes filled with thoughts and ill have a mental breakdown. i just start writing what immediately comes to my head. i don't have a name for the song yet, but i know the tune and the lyrics.

(obviously i do not own the song)

Hey, tell me what you want me to say
You know I'm stupid for you
Hey, can you come and come out and play
You know I'm stupid for you
I'm colour coding my moods
You're yellow, I'm natural blue
Let's get together and be green like my insides
At least I'll match your eyes
Jealous and hypnotized
Let's match our faces and be equally in love
Hey, tell me what you want me to say
You know I'm stupid for you
Hey, can you come and come out and play
You know I'm stupid for you
Let's trash our whole afternoon
Reciting recycled news
Until we meld and go back to your hotel room
I'll be your new favourite tune
I'll be your autoplay tune
But only when you miss the rain like I miss you
Just double dare me
And I promise now that I'll stay
It's not like you're married but I still got carried away
Hey, tell me what you want me to say
You know I'm stupid for you
Hey, can you come and come out and play
You know I'm stupid for you
You're playin' ring round my head
I'll wear you like a halo
You're a symphony, I'm just a sour note
I'll take what I can get
The best is hard to grip when everybody wants you
And everybody wants you
You're playin' ring round my head
I'll wear you like a halo
You're a symphony, I'm just a sour note
I'll take what I can get
The best is hard to grip when everybody wants you
Hey, tell me that you want me to stay
You know I'm stupid for you
Hey, can you come and come out and play
You know I'm stupid for you
You're playin' ring round my head
I'll wear you like a halo
You're a symphony, I'm just a sour note
I'll take what I can get
The best is hard to grip when everybody wants you
And everybody wants you

she's actually the most beautiful person ive ever seen. her (e/c) eyes, her (h/l, h/c) hair. i love her laugh. her smile. and her friends are cool too. she's got the best taste in music. she's funny. she's sweet. i like her a lot but i don't know how to tell her. i'll just have to wait til the times right i guess. and when that will be i don't know.

y/n's pov.
everyone is right. i do have a crush on awsten. and a fucking huge one at that. i might tell him next friday. give it a week. or maybe two. i don't know! how do people actually do this?! what do i do? what if he thinks i'm weird? what if he doesn't want to hang with us anymore? he's been here for only a few weeks and i've known him for less than a day! he's sure to think i'm a weirdo when i tell him. but i've got to. i just must. i'll ask dal or pat for help. they always know what to do. well in most situations anyway. i decide to call dallon. he declines my call. what the hell? I text him instead.
Y/N: Dal? You ok? I need to talk.
He leaves it on read. Somethings not right. I go to Brendon's room. "Bren? You in there?" "Y-yeah. W-why?" Hes been crying. "Let me in." He opens the door and practically falls into my arms, sobbing." We step into his room and sit on the floor together. "What's happened?" He shakes his head. "Tell me B." He sighs. "Dallon and I. We've had a argument. It'd because me and josh fought. He told me not to and he was really upset with me for ignoring him. I'm a dick. He's always telling me things and I never listen." I pull a sympathetic face. "Oh Bren. It'll all be okay. Dallon just needs his space sometimes. I'll talk to him, and sort it out. I promise." He nods. "Thanks n/n. Love you." I smile. "Love you too Brenny. Don't worry." I hug him and get up. I go to my room and lay on my bed when I get a notification. I look down at my phone. A follow request.
[your insta handle] @/awstenknight has requested to follow you.
Oh fuck. I accept of course, but I'm terrified. What if he judges all my instagram pictures and the cringey captions? I need to stop with the what ifs and concentrate on what is happening. But what's happening is going way to fast. I wish it'd slow down.