Oneshots - Any shipping

Ohmlive - Exhausted

Prepare for a buttload of reading O-O

UPDATED~ Yeah, about the ending? That wasn't really what I wanted but I was using my sister's laptop and she was kicking me off so I had to hurry, SORRY!~

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It was just another tiring day, fitting in enough time to record with everyone, editing, ect. Me, Minx, Entoan, and Dlive were recording the last video for today, a Gmod Prop Hunt video as usual.

 I sighed mentally at the thought of Dlive, I hate what he's done to my mind yet couldn't help but love it, just like I love him. I frowned and turned my attention back to my screen, not that much was happening. Ah yes, no one would really suspect that mysterious 'ol Ohm would have the hots for his supposedly best friend but alas, you can't change what the heart wants. Too bad what my heart wants is something I can never have. 

Drifting away into my thoughts again as Minx and Entoan tried to find me, I bit my lip. Even if Dlive was even the slightest bit gay he'd probably chase after Entoan, I mean, have you seen him lately? If I wasn't completely captivated by Dlive I'd probably want a piece of Entoan ass myself. Plus they're some of the best of friends, outside the recordings they spend forever chatting with each other on skype, I stay and try to catch his attention but end up getting talked over immediately.

Thinking of the situation looks wise again I took a downwards glance at myself. My frown deepened greatly as I looked over myself. I wasn't exactly Mr. HottieMcBody over here. Ever wonder why I'm the MaskedGamer? 

The unruly brown hair upon my head was crazy and always liked to spike up in this most annoying of ways despite my efforts. I wasn't fat but I wasn't a twig either, pretty normal but people nowadays are very critical about that kind of stuff. Now all that stuff aside, my eyes however. That's a different thing entirely. You could pretty much tell my every emotion through the damn things, hard to not look completely love struck or pissed off when you literally have 'windows to the soul' on your face. Not to mention the insane color they are!

My dad always was disgusted every time he looked at me, seeing them. Yes, I don't know where I got them from but I have actual heterochromic eyes. Oddly enough neither of the colors are my mother or father's. They both have brown eyes yet my left is a bright blue while my right is a leafy green. And back on seeing every emotion in my eyes? The blue dulls to a slate gray and the green turns dark as well when I'm sad or any form of upset.

Another abnormal feature to my eyes is that unless I'm wearing my specialized glasses I'm extremely far sighted. If I take them off I could probably read small text on a sign a hundred feet away. However if I try to look at something close up to me I get a massive migraine. While the glasses are on I have a normal person's eyesight.

Judging from my family's reaction to them I don't think many people are too fond of them, so I stay my 'masked' self. Doesn't stop passerbys from seeing them though, however they seem polite enough not to cringe in disgust as well.

I was snapped out of my self berating mindset by screaming through my headphones.

"OHMWRECKER! FOR FUCK'S SAKE! ARE YOU THERE?" Minx screamed and I winced as the sound pierced my eardrums. 

"Yeah, uh, yeah! I'm here, I'm here! Sheesh, calm down Minx." I responded, having taken a headphone off and rubbing my ear.

"Finally! Jeeze, we were calling for you forever, Ohm." Dlive commented and I grinned sheepishly despite them not being able to see it. "Sorry guys, just got really deep into thought."

"Man, what were you thinking about so much? You went silent like 10 minutes ago, game's over now." Entoan asked now, his voice probably making my blue eye darken greatly. Not that I hated 'him', himself, he was a cool friend but the Dlive situation has made me pretty bitter around him.

"None of your business." I snapped back, instantly wanting to slap myself for my harshness. I glanced to my other monitor where I had skype pulled up to see the two visible people flinch.

 "Um, Ohm? Are you okay buddy? You've been acting way off lately but I've never heard you use that tone of voice before." Dlive asked, seeming genuinely concerned. The thought of him being worried about me made my heart beat a bit faster.

"I um, sorry guys. Just, uh, problems I've been having and lack of sleep from being busy." I covered up, however the exhausted part actually being true. I was almost always tired lately.

"Oh, well, maybe you should get some sleep, take a break Ohm." Minx suggested and I smiled a little at their concern. "Thanks guys, but what about the Ohmies? They get rowdy without their uploads."

I heard Dlive laugh a little. "Don't worry Ohm, I'm sure they'll understand if you give a little update on twitter. And before you protest again about not everyone looking at twitter, I'm once again sure they'll spread the news to others if they ask, okay? Get some sleep Ryan." He smiled at his webcam and everyone seemed to simultaneously leave the call at the same time.

I took that as a cue to actually go lay down for a bit. I smiled again and pulled up twitter to leave a little memo that I'd be taking a little break before shutting every thing down and going to bed and flopping down. I breathed in deeply and held it for a few seconds before releasing it, feeling the tell tale slight lightheadedness afterwards. I actually liked the feeling and it helped to drift my mind off until I'd almost fallen asleep while thinking about random things.

That is, until one thought occurred to me. Dlive called me Ryan. He never, ever calls me that. Or anyone for that matter.



And my mind being the hyperactive paranoid mind that it is, I managed to lay in bed for another couple hours trying to figure out why he used my real name.

I'd gone to bed around 10 am but as I sleepily pulled my phone out to check the time I was surprised to see it was already almost 3 in the afternoon. How you ask? Did I possible manage to think about that for so long? Well it did concern me quite a bit, and my mind tends to wander A LOT when I think too long.

I groaned and dropped my phone next to me head. I couldn't go to sleep now, I'd only planned on sleeping until about this time because my brother was coming over today to 'check' on me. 

My father may hate my eyes but my mother on the other hand doesn't so much as abhor them as she is concerned as hell about whether I can live alone or not. She lives about 3 states away so she sends my brother who lives about 15 minutes away to check on me every week. To see if I haven't broken my glasses and looked at something close enough to give me such a migraine that I like fell over into a coma or something like that. I can sort of see why she worries so much. I spend most of my time close up with a bright computer screen and the migraines actually do get so bad that one time I was found in my room clutching my head and sobbing when I was just a kid.

Of course I'm in my mid twenties now but she is still as concerned as ever, and more paranoid in her older age.

Speak of the devil, I hear a loud banging on my front door and I groan and roll out of bed. That wasn't a smart choice seeing as how I landed on my arm, causing me to squeal in pain. How manly, right?

Composing myself the best I could, I trudged to the door and yanked it open. My brother, Ethan, didn't seem too impressed with my appearance. He raised a brow but didn't ask, instead walking in and sitting on my couch. "Wow, how classy Ethan, walking in and taking over my couch like you own the place." I commented sassily before closing the door and plopping onto the couch beside him.

"Oh shush Ryan, like you're the most gentlemanly person." He retorted before turning and grabbing my face. I prepared myself for the usual procedure as he removed my glasses and flashed me with a bright light quickly, causing my vision to turn white momentarily. I then felt my glasses being slipped back on and I blinked rapidly till I could see properly again. 

"Alright, they seem fine." Ethan stated before putting his special flashlight back in his pocket and standing up. I watched as he went back to the door and opened it. As he was about to leave he turned to glance at me. "Get some sleep Ryan, you look like shit." Then he slammed the door shut with that comment, leaving me sitting there staring at the door.

Ethan is usually the neutral guy who doesn't seem to care about anything and generally treats me with a nice handful of blandness and snippy remarks. Before now he has never really shown concern for my well being.

I blinked and shrugged. My mind for once not tearing the situation to pieces.

I was still dead tired but I also couldn't sleep even if it saved a million lives. I sighed in defeat and went back to my room and computer. So much for a break. I haven't slept in over 28 hours.

I logged back into everything to see Dlive and Minx still on, but not Entoan. Good, like I said, he's a good friend but my damn emotions are slowly ruining every good thought about him.

Immediately I was called by Dlive and I answered after pulling my headphones on. I noticed Minx was also in the call before Dlive bombarded me with questions. "Hey Ohm! Did you get a good sleep? Do you feel alright? Ohm?" I blinked as my half awake brain tried to process the questions.

I yawned before responding, "Oh uh, actually, no. I didn't sleep at all...." I admitted, bracing myself for the reaction. "What!?" They both practically screamed, making my eyes snap wide open. "Why not?!" Minx yelled, followed by Dlive saying, "Ohm, we told you to take a break, you're obviously not feeling right. Why didn't you sleep like we said?"

My brain tried to come up with a good excuse since I obviously couldn't say I was kept up because of my crazy questions about Dlive. "I uh, my mind uh, wandered? I couldn't stop thinking about...stuff..." I replied lamely, biting my lip nervously.

I looked to Dlive's webcam to see a less than impressed look and I'm sure Minx was the same. "Ohm-" Minx was cut off by another voice in the background followed by a few thuds. "Ugh, I gotta go guys. Ohm, I'm gonna kill you when I get back." Then she left the call, leaving me and Dlive alone, for the first time in a long time.

"So...." I broke the silence, not daring to look at Dlive's face again. "Ohm." He said suddenly after another little pause, making me jump. "Y-yeah?" I stuttered, not quite my usual self.

"You do have a webcam, right?" I gulped as my ever trusty crazy mind started trying to analyze what he was getting at. "Uh, yes?" The response came out as questioning. "Please, turn it on."

"Uh, but, Dli-"

"Please Ryan?" I peeked at his face once I heard my name and I immediately felt the urge to do as he asked. "....Okay..."

I shifted around in a box of wires until I found the one I needed and plugged it in, turning on the camera. I sighed and turned to the little light, my eyes averted, half looking at skype. "Wow..." I hear and pay attention fully to skype. Dlive's face seems shocked and my mind instantly starts yelling to me, 'It's your eyes. He's looking at them and thinking how ugly and wrong they look.'

I close and scrunch up my eyes as soon as I realize what I just did. I finally showed someone what I looked like and now they know. Now Dlive knows about the unnatural abominations that are my eyes and just how ugly I really am. "Wait! Open your eyes again, please. They're so-"

"Ugly? Disgusting? Completely strange and hideous to look at? Utter abominations?" I finished for him repeatedly. "-beautiful." He continued and my eyes snapped open to look at his awestruck face again. "W-what?" My mouth was slightly agape as I tried to fully take in what I just heard.

"Ohm, Ryan, your eyes are amazing. Is this why you never show yourself?" He asked, seeming to be entranced by my eyes, staring at them. I nodded hesitantly and recomposed myself. "Yes...it is....but they aren't 'amazing' or 'beautiful'. They're horrible." I tried to argue.

"Ohm, who told you that? Because they are far from anything negative, unless you count extremely handsome to be a bad thing." My cheeks heated up a bit and I rubbed my hands together uncomfortably. "...My dad, most of my family....for pretty much my whole life. Even random strangers I can tell with the way they give me pitying smiles when they notice." I replied glumly, looking down.

"Oh Ohm..." Dlive sighed and I looked back up again. His face was pitying as well and I felt myself grow angry. He didn't actually mean any of that! He's just like them, saying it out of pity! I growled in annoyance and glared at him. "I know what you're doing. You're just like all those people who send me those smiles, you don't mean anything you just said! I can see it on your face!" I started yelling and I watched as Dlive grew surprised and slightly scared, sinking into his seat. "You know what? I don't need this!"

I didn't even give him time to say anything, leaving the call as his webcam showed him opening his mouth with a panicked face. All the emotions and the sleep deprivation hit me at once and I felt tears well in the corners of my eyes. Those damn eyes.

I let out a yell and fell face first into my bed, wetting my pillow as the tears let loose fully. 

I lied there for awhile, just crying everything out until sleep came back full force and I felt myself slip into a fit of nightmares.

(Little thing before we continue. What's about to happen actually has happened to me when I had a horrifying dream.)

I woke up gasping some time later, the tears returning again when I thought of the reason I woke in a fit in the first place. I growled and rubbed at my eyes harshly. "Stop it Ohm, you aren't weak like this." I whispered to myself and tried to cease the flow of salty liquid. 

Yet it didn't seem to work, only getting worse and worse by the minute. Loud sobs and hiccups that made my whole body jerk wracked my body making me clutch my head as I felt a headache coming on. I tried to open my eyes but realized I must have dropped my glasses either while asleep or one of the times my body jerked. "DAMN IT!" I yelled and fell back on my bed, continuing to cry for seemingly no reason. But it certainly wasn't no reason to me, those dreams were horrible, all involving my friends hating and abusing me repeatedly, mentally and physically. Some also were scenes where I was paralyzed and could only watch as something horrible happened to Dlive because of me.

But the last was me watching through my eyes as my body acted on its own, saying things against my will. Where I myself, murdered Dlive. 

A particularly hard sob came out as I replayed the scene in my head, the image of his blood coating my hands. I scratched at my head when the images wouldn't stop playing through my head, making me feel as if I was going insane.

It wasn't until I heard a pounding on my door did I momentarily stop sobbing to scream, "GO AWAY!" Before the onslaught resumed, sounding louder to me than before. I sat up and slammed my head against my wall as Dlive's voice floated around my head, begging and screaming for me to stop. I screamed out and started hyperventilating while choking on sobs as he continued to plead for me to, "Please stop! Please!"

I barely noticed the slam in the background of my cries and continued to try anything and everything to make it stop. "STOP IT! SHUT UP, SHUT UP! JUST. SHUT. UP!" I screamed and dug my nails into my scalp as I banged my head against the wall again. I hardly registered the burning pain, still focused on my mental crisis.

"OHM!" The yell met my ears, at first thinking it was another memory of the dream before I felt hands grab my arms and yank them away. My eyes shot open but I immediately regretted it as the figure before me caused my bare eyes to send a agonizing pain to my head, far worse than any damage I did with the wall. Not caring who was before me or what they thought of the sight they must see I yelled, "Glasses! Floor!" And gripped my hair in my hands and pulled as my face scrunched up.

Cool plastic slid across my skin and settled on my ears and nose making me blink my eyes open again. The pain faded away and my vision cleared to see....wait? 

"Dlive?!" The breathy question left my lips.

His eyes were wide and scared looking, dried trails of tears upon his cheeks. "Are you okay Ohm? Please answer me." He practically begged and gripped my shoulders. "I...." I noticed I wasn't crying or having anymore flashbacks. 

"I think so?" I replied, not sure of my answer at all. 

"What was that?!" He cried and I swear he looked ready to burst out crying much like I had been just moments ago. I sighed in defeat and slumped against my wall, feeling exhausted again after the episode. "Sit." I commanded and closed my eyes as I told him about the dreams, or rather, nightmares.

"But do you want to know why you were the one who died? Why I was so devastated when I killed you?" I looked to Dlive and watched as his sad looking face nodded. I sighed again and looked away, deciding it would be best to come clean now.

"I love you Dlive, I really really do. Actually, the reason I snapped at Entoan yesterday was because I'm jealous. You always spend time with him and pushed me away and I was tired of it." I admitted, not wanting to see his reaction. "You can leave now if you want, never speak to me again..."

I felt a hand rest on my cheek before turning my head to Dlive. I didn't resist as his face came into view again, but the expression I saw was not what I expected at all. "Ryan, I've never been so happy to hear you say anything before in my life." And as those words left his lips the same ones were smashed against mine. I kissed back immediately, my own lips pushing back like them being connected was the only thing keeping me alive.

My arms snaked their way around Dlive's waist and his hands gripped my head, seemingly trying to pull us closer yet failing as we already were pulled together tightly. I felt his tongue poke at my lips and I reacted instantly, opening my mouth and letting the appendage enter and explore. I moaned as he rubbed our tongues together, running my hand up his side.

Eventually we had to part, panting and a string of saliva still connecting us. 

I grinned as I actually took in what just happened, never have I felt so happy. Dlive smiled back falling on my chest and resting his head in the crook of my neck. "So, if you haven't figured it out yet, I love you too Ohm." He breathed out, still catching his breath. I wrapped my arms around him and buried my face in his short hair, inhaling. 

"Thank you." I whispered into his hair, finally feeling content for the first time in quite a while. I felt Dlive smile into my neck in response.

Then reliable old brain came back and I couldn't help but ask, "How and why are you all the way out here?" Last I checked Dlive lived quite a few hours away.

I heard a light chuckle from him. "Well, you see." I giggled as he went into an explanation on how he practically sprinted out his house without locking the door to drive here when I left the call. 

"What? I was really concerned Ohm." I just giggled again and pulled him up to peck him on the lips again. "I love you." We smiled into the kiss and I pulled away and sat up properly again. "I wasn't lying about your eyes by the way." He commented, staring at them. I just nodded while grinning before tackling him onto the bed. "Ahh! Ohm!" He squealed making my giggle happily. "I LOVE YOU!" I yelled before laying all over him.

"Get off!"

"Nope~"

"OHM!"

"Hehehe~"