Premanjali ✔

||After four years||

4 years later:-

Four years ago I have left my home,

Four years ago I left my identity as Kuru kulvadhu

Four years ago I last saw my husband

My heart quenched at the thought of him, the one who was my everything, the one I hoped I would spend the rest of my life, the one who made me realised what love was. The one who gave me my most cherished gifts in the form of my children

Yes, children, three and a half years ago I gave birth to my beautiful boy and my daughter, they were my life or maybe more than life

My morning started with seeing their faces and ended with the same,

I touched the feet of the murti I made,

"Happy birthday Arjun! Happy birthday! I miss you so much Arjun, every day, every second and every hour, I realised even more clearly without you I'm not just incomplete but nothing!" Tears welled up in my eyes as I smiled through it

"But don't think I haven't heard how you pleased Mahadev and got Pashupatastra, I'm so proud of you and I know our children are too, I..." I cleared my choked voice and continued

"I wish I could tell them about you, I wish I could see them in your arms" I gulped down and tried to stop the sob which was threating to come out

"You know , your Son looks more like me with your eyes but his behaviour and passion for archery just like you, even though he is three and half only" I chuckled to myself thinking of my son, Shrutakirti, he was such a wild spirit with kind heart, He was a mother's son.. Every night if he didn't sleep in my lap he wouldn't sleep and he absolutely loved his sister

"And...and your daughter" I smiled thinking about her "She looks exactly like you, same eyes, same nose same lips, she is like the female version of you" I shook my head " she loves to sing and draw and..." My smile slowly vanished

"And she asks about her father, a lot , I keep lying to her , saying you are busy in punishing some bad people and will come back soon ...."

I closed my eyes and let the tears flow from my eyes until I heard a tiny voice calling me

"Maa" Pragati came and clasped my neck I hurriedly wiped my tears off and smiled at her taking her in my arms

"Yes, putri!" I kissed on her soft cheeks

"Maa, bhrata spoiled my drawing!" She cried out, even though they can sspeakttheirwords weren't clear and I was simply in love with it

"Really?" I made her stand on my lap,d wiped off her tears

"Yes, and...and..he said you love him the most so you won't scold him" she huffed clearly annoyed with her brother

"Well... I will sure scold him but are you sure you did nothing to him?" I asked her and she averted her gaze

"Umm. I hide his bow" she said slowly and got off of my lap and ran away

I sighed and stood up and went to the other room, where my kids were fighting, pointing their finger at each other and Mats was having a hard time handling both of them.

"Kirti! Pragati!" I cross my hands over my chest and gazed at them coldly and they stopped, I knew how much they feared my this look

"Please, Your Kids are making me forget my age!" She said, looking completely exhausted

"Kirti, Pragati, why are you fighting? Didn't I say you to be good today? " I asked kneeling down

"Pragati don't ever steal Kirti's bow.."

"I.." Before she could protest I shushed her and continued

"And Kirti don't ever do anything with Pragati's drawing..and always remember I love you both equally , okay?" I said pinching the edge of their nose

"When you both fight like that , mata feels bad!" I said , soothing their curls ,

I really didn't feel sad , they are just toddlers and I know how much they loved each other

After sometimes, they both hugged me and places there head on the crook of my neck

"Sorry mata, We made you sad! We will never do it again, please dont be sad!" Kirti said in his adorable baby tone, realising the hug and I smiled

"I don't think they will fight with each other anytime soon!" I said to mata in a low tone

I called her maa, I won't say she was like a mother, she was indeed a mother, she gave me a new life, a shelter and most importantly, She gave me and my kids love

She never makes me feel unwanted instead She told me that we coloured her colourless life and my kids are her precious laddus without whom she was unable to live

"No dear, I'm not sad at all, you didn't make me sad neither Pragati did!" I said creasing their cheeks

"But you better behave now, I am going to temple," I said looking at mata as I got up.

"Yes , they will. You can go, I.." She took the kids hand and said with excitement "And I'll tell some interesting stories to my favourite laddus in the world.."

Their faces light up and they squealed in joy

"You are the best!" They hugged her legs and I couldn't help but smile at my kids, their smiles.... Exactly like him

"I'm going maa, Kids. You better behave, I have made your favourite sweets, if you listen to your grandma I'll give you the sweets!"

"Really!! Yayy! I love you maa" they both said together and giggled

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"Bless him Maa, Let him achieve all his goals, Let him be happy, I don't know when I'll see him again... You know everything why I had to be separated with him why I had to take his children away from him, I was helpless, a mother was helpless, maybe the prophecy is wrong, maybe Arjun could protect me, but could he always? No, if so, I would never be kidnapped!" Tears streamed down from my closed eyes and look into Mata Gauri's eyes

"Just... Just let my husband and kids be happy and safe, that's all I want now and let them meet soon" I said throwing the flower at her feet

"I...I don't want him to hate me Maa, d-does he hates me?" I asked in a whisper

Suddenly a voice interrupted my prayer

"Everyone , please step aside the princes and queen of Hastinapur have arrived!"

My heart jumped in my throat....

No , not now , I don't think I'm ready,

Suddenly after four years I can't face them

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