When you leave you get the chance to become nothing but I'm still me & I'm not even fucking here
I feel so far away
So so far gone
Like I'm not even here and I never chose to comeIt all feels like this big distant memory but I'm right here in the midst of everything
I feel so far gone I can't be found
Maybe I could find myself
If I could just fly like you
So effortlessly
Above everything that you care about
Like you're just nothingEven if I had the chance to be like you
To leave how you do
To be gone with as much permanence you did as you came withI'd probably not look for where I was
Not try to find meEven though when I stand perfectly still
Or sit down
Cementing myself in placeI'm not there
I'm not there I'm just gone and here's this big invisible part of me just goneAnd I look so complete
I look like I'm just the way I'm meant toLike nothing feels wrong and all is right and there
Like everything is a shipment on timeBut maybe I got banged around the fucking box on the way
Because I'm so so far done with this all
And I just want to be like you
I just want to be gone
You see you leave and then never come back
You're as silent as can be
Then only screaming when you want to be knownWhen you think you have a thing to be heard
But then you're done again
You see when you land for a break and walk around it's like you're teasing us
You're taunting us
Saying look here
The danger is all around me
I could die any second and yet I'm here I'm still hereI'm going to parade myself around in the exact way you do
But I can leave anytimeAnd then you do
And I know it won't stop you have no idea
No clue
Not a thoughtAnd so you'll leave me again and again
All of youFly away and let me be lost
Let me not know what to find and where
Fuck
These birds don't know how good they have it
It's the thing they never learn
In all the time they're goneAnd I'm not enough here to teach them
Or to find a way to convey any of this
To anyone feathered or not
YOU ARE READING
Shit rant poems
PoetryThere are so so so many typos and one day, I'll fix them all.....maybe