Guide from Polaris

Chapter 16

Anouk

It's  been two hours since North called and once I told him where I was he hang up  on me  without saying anything . My  anxiety level was on the top both because of my daddy's ongoing operation  and North . Withing the short period I got to know about North , I knew he was not someone who have patience or he doesn't like it when someone break his or her words .

He is not going to ket this go . I have a gut feeling about that.

I don't what he is going to do ? I knew it was wrong to break my word but the circumstances did not allow me to keep my word. I was thankful because I remembered to grab North's present with me . I already guessed today is his birthday and if not he wouldn't have fret over me agreeing to spend whole evening  with him. 

Everything was happening fastly and it's already new day  within few hours making North's birthday pass . We were still waiting until the operation ends. Neither Tait nor Ray wanted to leave the hospital no matter mom and I told them to go home and rest.

I didn't know I was tapping my foot until I felt my mom's warm hand on my leg stopping my moments .

"What is bothering you Anouk ?  I know it's not about your daddy anymore so  don't try to lie to me. We both know that your daddy is going to be okay . Tell me what's going on inside  pretty little head of yours babygirl " I couldn't help but smile hearing her words. Oh, how well she knows about me. I always forget that.

" I broke my promise I gave to someone close to me " I told her. I didn't get any chance to tell her or daddy about North because earlier I was not so sure about the direction our relationship going until the night North took me to the party and Damien's incident .  

" Was it him called you earlier ? Your boyfriend ?" I was speechless . How did she guessed I am talking about a man . She knew there wasn't any special man in my life since Damien at Highschool even though she is unware of what exactly happend. I didn't tell anyone about what happened because at that time mom had many things to deal with . I know she have tiny idea about what may have happened that's why she didn't question my decision to study at John Hopkins letting go of my full scholarship . I was thankful for that but I knew she would want to talk about what happened 7 years ago since my daddy is recovering .

"We are not dating " I denied quickly .

"Yet ?"  She had a teasing smile . Great . I was so thakful because both Ray and Tait are fast asleep curled into my side. Tait is a jealous freak and he won't be pleased knowing there is a man in my life . Tait hardly tolerate my close relationship with daddy .

"Mom . It's not like that "  I complained to her. I don't know if he would  still want me after what happened today . It's not like we had time to make our relationship official .

"Tell your mom what is it sweetheart  . You don't have to keep everything inside you . You can share them with us too "

"Please start being selfish from now on. You are selfless for your owngood. You have carried too many responsibilities on your shoulders . I swear I'm proud about how strong you are . Me and your dad both . But I can't help but feel like we couldn't give you much to let you enjoy your youth like others. Anouk you have not attended to a single  party  with your age friends .  " I knew daddy and she are blaming themselves for me growing too fast than other girls of my age.

It's not their fault . I was happy to share some responsibilities with them. I will never regret anything I have done till this day. I always tell them that but they still fell guilty . I'm sure they will be able to feel ease in the future.

" I promised North to spend his birthday with him but I forget to inform him before coming here . Now he is angry with me I think. No I knwo he must be angry  " I explained to her. I felt my heart feeling little ease after talking with her.