Peter Parker Field Trips

Dad?! (not a field trip)

⚠️Trigger Warning: Panic/Anxiety Attack, one curse word⚠️

⚠️No spoilers that I am aware of, but if there is one please message or comment so I can include it⚠️

All Russian has translations and pronunciation included, sorry if its incorrect I'm new to the Russian language and am still learning.

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"So," Clint questioned exiting the elevator "what's everyone been up to?".

Out of the seven in the room, Natasha responded first "Just got back from a mission, Fury sent me to infiltrate a Hydra base about 10 blocks down."

Tony, Wanda and Bruce nodded in agreement, with Bucky seizing up at the mention of his old company. "Yeah, apparently they were trying to recreate the Winter Soldier serum they gave Bucky here."

Bucky's eyes trained on the floor, his mind flashing back to all the death and torture. The innocent lives he'd taken against his will, when he was being controlled Hydra had him storm a family home, he would never forget the screams, the pleas for mercy, the small children begging for their mother to wake up.

Bucky tried to drain all thoughts out of his head, thinking of Steve, trying to remember the good old days when he would go for a walk with Steve before the serum and need to slow his footsteps so he could keep up.

Bucky held a small smile on his face for a second before the gunfire played out in his head, the group of kids that had oversaw him outside of a targets house who Hydra ordered he kill. He could remember the chase, those kids made him run through back alleys trying to catch them, they clearly knew their way around the street.

He could still remember when he caught them the younger sisters screams for her older brother who hit the ground a minute or two before she did. Bucky could remember the parents who appeared on the news the next couple of days searching for their missing children thinking that they ran away.

"-ky, Bucky" Tony questions waving a hand in front of his face, snapping Bucky out of his stupor.

"Huh?"

"You zoned out for a moment there grandpa, you alright?" Tony asked.

"Yeah, fine"

The group shrugged it off as a one-time thing, continuing to talk about the mission. Bucky's eyes became glazed over again.

He was remembering the tour group that was made up of middle-school children, all no doubt with friends and families, people that were expecting their return to school three hours later. The explosion echoing through his head made a single tear fall from his eye.

The pram that rolled its way down the street after the baby's mother had fell to the concrete bleeding from the bullet wounds in her stomach and chest. The sound of the baby's crying becoming softer the further it got away from him. This particular memory drawing a quiet sob from Bucky, catching the attention of the team.

The team noticing that something was wrong with their teammate tapped him on the shoulder attempting to talk to him. This only made the whole situation worse, Bucky was unaware of his surroundings, he didn't know if it was his team or Hydra surrounding him. He flinched at the touch and leant back into the couch.

His breathing became laboured and slightly uneven, his eyes screwed shut, muttering words that no one could hear. Tears still slowly falling as he trembled.

"Bucky, what's going on?" questioned Pietro his accent becoming more prominent with worry.

Bucky didn't respond, the screaming in his head becoming deafening. His hands reached up to cover his ears trying to get rid of the memories, the agony, the Winter Soldier.