Lost → Nathan Sykes

nine

nine

~ Vanessa ~

I sigh, tossing and turning in bed. Seeing Luke sound asleep beside me. I sigh wiping my sweaty forehead, my stomach churning with guilt. I trace my fingers over my lips, knowing Nathan's were once there before. How amazing the kiss felt, like the whole world had been switched off, but then reality dawns on you and you know it's wrong.

I look down placing my hand on my stomach as the baby kicks. "You hungry baby?" I coo quietly, not waking Luke up. I head downstairs and into the kitchen, the house is a tip but I honestly don't care right now. I stifle a yawn as I root through the cupboards for something that tickles my taste buds.

"Can't sleep?" A husky deep voice asks from behind.

"I guess."

I turn around grabbing an apple from the fruit bowl, rinsing it and taking a big bite, avoiding Nathan's gaze.

"Me neither," He sighs rubbing his temples. "I've messed things up big time haven't I?"

"You haven't messed anything up Nathan," I finally speak. "What happened, happened. We can't take it back, I've never felt so guilty."

"I just... I just couldn't help it, I had to, I couldn't resist. I'm sorry, Nessa" Nathan whispers. "It doesn't matter" I swallow more juicy apple. "What's done is done."

"It was a mistake," Nathan blurts out. "I had too much to drink, and I came onto you. It was a huge mistake, I love Ariana. You do know that, right?"

My heart drops and my mind just goes blank.

A mistake.

"-Nessa?" Nathan interrupts my numb emotions. "Yeah," I blink. "A mistake, it won't happen again."

*****

I wake up around half past ten and when I go to cuddle Luke, his space is cold and empty. I frown sitting up and rubbing my eyes. He's probably gone to work again.

I climb out of bed, showering and changing. I feel continuous kicking and I look down at my stomach. "Don't worry baby," I coo. "Mummy's gonna get some food for us."

I quickly brush my hair before heading downstairs and straight into the kitchen where I pour myself some orange juice and I make some porridge. I chop up some strawberries, placing them nicely on top. Carrying everything through into the living room, I settle down and I gobble up my delicious breakfast.

"Aw Nathan, it's beautiful" Ariana says as she enters the room looking in the mirror and clipping something round her neck, a necklace I'm guessing. "I'm your boyfriend, I'm allowed to treat you" Nathan laughs coming in too and standing behind Ari, placing soft kisses on her neck as she giggles. I roll my eyes standing up and storming out of the room, slamming the door behind me. I slam my bowl into the sink as my breathing is heavy. I look down at my small bump. "It's okay," I speak. "I have you."