Will you hold me? | cavetown

28 - Lemon Boy

January 20th (Monday)

It has now been over a month of me taking the medication for my anxiety, we are back at the doctors for a follow up.

"It seems to have stopped your violent attacks from happening which, of course, is a very good thing. Whilst this medication won't entirely relieve you of having anxiety attacks, you'll have them less frequently then you were and they'll be easier to manage. It seems the medication is working for you and we will keep it on prescription for you, I'd like to see you again soon to double check that all is well and that the medication isn't damaging anything else in your body that we may not be able to visibly see. But as of right now I'm really happy with you, you seem to be living a better life then you were less then two months ago and you should be able to carry on like this. Of course, if you have any issues don't hesitate to book an appointment or go to A&E. Thank you for coming in today, do you have any questions?"

"No doctor, thank you so much for all your help. I'll see you soon," I reply before shaking his hand and practically dragging Ray out of the doctors.

"I can't believe it!" I say as we were in the car on the way back to college. "I know baby, I'm so glad you're doing a lot better now. Time to carry on with our lives," he replied smiling at me.

Have I mentioned before how much I love him?
Because I love him a heckin lot.

As he once said to me "really loving someone could also translate into wanting to share that connection that you feel like you can be that vulnerable with them" and boy have I been very vulnerable with him. I'm so glad he accepted my asexuality so well, if he hadn't of done that then I have no idea where I'd be right now.

Here's to continuing on with life,
I love each and everyone who is a part of my life. This year is all about spending time with them and showing them how much I love them.

Here's to 2020.