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𝘐 𝘸𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘣𝘢𝘤𝘬 𝘵𝘰 𝘢 𝘥𝘪𝘧𝘧𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘤𝘦.
𝘞𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘐 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘤𝘭𝘶𝘦𝘭𝘦𝘴𝘴 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘐 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘵𝘢𝘬𝘦𝘯 𝘢𝘸𝘢𝘺.
𝘛𝘩𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘦𝘺𝘦𝘴 𝘰𝘧 𝘢 𝘤𝘩𝘪𝘭𝘥, 𝘐 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘮𝘦𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘦𝘦
𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘵𝘳𝘶𝘦 𝘮𝘦𝘢𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘰𝘧 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘪𝘵𝘺.

"Who do you like? Come on! You have to like someone right? Has anybody captured your heart yet?"
Those were one of the first words that my friends told me that implemented the idea of love. Natalie, one of my close friends, also chimed in with her suggestions on who would be the perfect fit for me. There was only one problem, before 7th grade, I was never interested in boys and never really wanted or needed one anyway. With all the kissing and intimate hugging already going on in our school and in the hallways, why would I want to be a part of that? It was really uncomfortable and even disgusting to watch. I never really understood how or why relationships happen. I just was too focused on maintaining my grades and my current friendships. I just don't see relationships as necessary.

If I really wanted a boyfriend now, I probably would have been dead for all I know because of some girl that went missing a couple of weeks back. It's honestly really scary to think about. I don't know what a guy could do to me. From my personal experience, boys have always been pretty annoying and kind of rude for the most part. Yes, I do have three guy friends but they're just that and nothing more because they would not be the type to date anyone.

This is a really complicated subject for me because I'm pretty inexperienced myself. I just don't think I'm the relationship type girl and that's how it's always been. I think of myself as a little kid. I am so new to the world of love and I never felt anything like that before. I always thought it was smart to stay away from anything like that. What if it's even dangerous? I just don't plan to like or date anyone for the next couple of years until college but I wouldn't be surprised if I still kept my word.

That also reminds me... that I have not introduced myself yet and you have no idea who the fuck I am. My name is Kali and I'm a 7th grader at Westbrook Middle School. So far middle school has been pretty uneventful and just overall stressful. I plan to make it out alive but with high school coming closer and closer, I think the chance of me not dying is pretty low. I just wish my life was more entertaining and not so bland. It's almost like I'm in those old movies where they didn't even have color yet and everything was just black and white but probably more depressing. Although there is only a semester left until the end of 7th grade, I at least hope that things will get better that will take me out of this depressing state.