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Spring's reconciliation sprouts from lies

𝘐 𝘸𝘰𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘥 𝘸𝘩𝘺 𝘴𝘱𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘪𝘴 𝘢𝘭𝘸𝘢𝘺𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘳𝘵 𝘢𝘯𝘦𝘸.
𝘞𝘩𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘳𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘶𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘢𝘳𝘮 𝘴𝘶𝘯 𝘢𝘧𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘸𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘳'𝘴 𝘩𝘢𝘳𝘴𝘩 𝘤𝘰𝘭𝘥.
𝘐𝘵'𝘴 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘢 𝘯𝘦𝘸 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦 𝘩𝘢𝘴 𝘣𝘦𝘦𝘯 𝘣𝘰𝘳𝘯 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘸𝘩𝘪𝘤𝘩 𝘪𝘵 𝘨𝘳𝘦𝘸.
𝘛𝘩𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩 𝘪𝘵𝘴 𝘭𝘪𝘦𝘴, 𝘪𝘵 𝘸𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘯𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘣𝘭𝘰𝘰𝘮.

It was March and nothing new has happened in the past few weeks. After February's reveal, I think everyone has come to believe what I've told. What I know is that nothing has been the same since then. People have tried to expose me but I always came out with an excuse that would change their minds. It never helped anyone including myself. Who would feel glad about lying to someone that thought you were a good person? It could've been worse though, I mean, everyone could've called me a liar and a selfish bitch. I do deserve to be called anyway but not right now because I was already hurting from the self-inflicted pain.

If you want to know about Bradley... I have still not talked to him in weeks. Actually, I might've lied if you want to get very technical. No surprise there. He did ask for my notes to copy off of and he did respond when I asked him a question that was necessary for the class. I was very nice to him offering any help I could because at this point I felt awful. Anything that he wanted, I would give it to him. Any way I could make his life easier, I would do it if it meant forgiveness. I didn't talk to him or follow him since... I was still scared of him. There was nothing else I could do at that point. If this wouldn't work, I feel like I would have to just move to a different school because I can't stand having his presence here anymore. It would be the only way to truly get rid of him from my life. It was still early to change my mind so it was possible.

*phone dings*
I was in complete shock to find out who it was

Bradley

The one person who I didn't want to see right now.

I picked up my phone, read, and I made sure the time stamp was permanent for a future reference. March 6th, 2019. He asked me about a question on the biology homework and of course, I gave him my answer and asked no questions. I was completely caught off guard because he has not texted me since December but just to note this was on his Cosplay account not his personal. When he first talk to me on his cosplay account he tricked me into thinking he was a different person that knew Bradley as a friend. I guess he just used it just for fun and to make fun of me. Later that same day, he asked me about TXT which is a boy K-pop group. Then, the conversation kept going from there as I gave him general answers and general questions. I didn't want to get too personal and to be honest I didn't wanna be myself. I was careful of every single word and every single sentence that I wrote. I didn't want to offend him in any way possible.

As the weeks went on, he kept texting me and we kept in touch. We were... becoming friends again. A spark of hope lit up inside of me. We mostly talked about K-pop, anime, school life, and stuff like that. I guess he enjoyed my company but at the time I was kind of curious. "Why didn't he text anyone else about this? I thought he had many friends" I didn't think much of it at the time since I was so glad he was starting to forgive me, at least, I was assuming that.

At last in June, he unblocked me on his personal account. That day would probably be the happiest day of my entire life because that means I gained our friendship back. Except the more I thought about it, the more I thought about how I did it. I lied about a relationship and he was probably thinking, "oh well now I definitely know she doesn't like me anymore because she's definitely committed to another guy so I feel more comfortable talking to her now".  Imagine if I never faked a relationship. I can 99.9% guarantee that he would not be talking to me today if I hadn't. It was a price to pay. Putting my reputation on a balance beam and one slip up can lead to my entire downfall in this school. For some reason, I was okay with putting all of that on the table for him. I'm telling you, love can make you do crazy things and this was just one of them.