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The taste of revenge

𝘍𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘥𝘴 𝘣𝘦𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘧𝘰𝘦𝘴.
𝘞𝘢𝘴 𝘪𝘵 𝘥𝘦𝘴𝘦𝘳𝘷𝘦𝘥 𝘰𝘳 𝘰𝘯𝘭𝘺 𝘥𝘦𝘧𝘦𝘯𝘴𝘦?
𝘖𝘯𝘭𝘺 𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘣𝘦 𝘥𝘦𝘱𝘰𝘴𝘦𝘥.
𝘖𝘩, 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘸𝘦𝘦𝘵 𝘵𝘢𝘴𝘵𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘳𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘯𝘨𝘦.

It was late fall, the temperature kept falling as the weeks go by, and so did I. Raymond, as I've said before probably didn't give a fuck about me and just wanted to fuck somebody over. That is when I found out that he wrote the response to my confession. He might found it funny but I didn't. Well now it was my turn. I decided to use him from my own use. To understand, there was a week where I lost full control of myself and I fell for another guy who was practically very similar to Bradley. I was going through a phase where I was drained of all of my feelings and I was desperate for affection. What was interesting, Any affection would've worked and it didn't have to be at a romantic level. The guy's name was Nash and we were pretty good friends in real life. Our friendship was based off an agreement that I would help him get one of my friends to like him back since he had a crush on her. That never ended up working out. Either way, our conversations were really funny and I fell for him accidentally. I feel like that was such a depressing state to be in. In fact, I didn't want anyone knowing about our friendship and how I felt but people were smart and they started speculating. That's where Raymond comes in. Instead of saying I liked Nash, I said that I liked Raymond instead even though that was not the truth. Let's see how he felt about that because honestly, I didn't care about how he felt. Why not? If he thinks it's funny let's see how funny this is to him. Why not be paired up with the most problematic girl in the school? "Your feelings don't mean shit to me," I said to myself thinking about it. It's not like he didn't deserve it. Thank god after a short period of time I snapped out of it and decided that this wasn't right, this wasn't me. As much as I was hurting, I knew karma would bite me in the ass one day. I just couldn't believe I did that. This made me realize how love can really mess with me.

I wasn't feeling the same since. I was trying to move on with life but the more I thought and thought again, the more it only held me back. So much so, I started falling backwards. Back to the same person that made me this way and put me into this spiral. I could not let someone find out the truth because if someone did then that would really trigger Bradley into officially wanting to end me. So I did the most unexpected thing ever and fabricated a whole damn story. I was in a panic, I had to think of something fast. That something is what I would regret for a long time. The story goes that I liked someone that goes to another school and his name was Jaden. I thought it would be simple, just name and school right? I thought wrong and everything people would ask or question, I would have to create more lies. Sinking myself deeper like quicksand. That is what got spread around but actions speak louder than words and no one knew that better than Raymond. He noticed the details about how I made excuses to be where Bradley was and how I always made eye contact with him. He texted me during my home room class while I was busy. I wanted to ignore him but he was a threat to me. Anyone could believe him and people knew that he could be trusted. I was forced to play along.

Raymond: Name at least 4 of gaby's friends
Kali: Dude I only go there to see Gaby
Raymond: You said you go over there to see Gaby and her friends
Kali: Yea if she's not there
Raymond: Kali I already know
Kali: Know what?
Raymond: You still have feelings towards Bradley. I can just tell.
Kali: No I don't I told you I like Jaden now.
Raymond: ok...

That is when I knew that he has the power to get me thrown out of the school if he wanted. I became scared. Even worse, he is very, very cold and what I mean is his personality. He never shows his emotions and he never liked me as a person either. I always thought his ultimate goal was to get rid of me permanently. If he found out the truth, that is exactly what he would do. I guess my original intention was to prove that I was better off of my own. That I didn't need Bradley and I could have a better love life than he could ever have. Now, that sounds so selfish and so entitled that even I looked disgustingly at myself.

Raymond only kept questioning me since and since I already planned this out, I only gave him more lies. Trying to make it seem believable. If you thought I was done, there was more where that came from.