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Winter's deception

𝘠𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘥𝘦𝘤𝘦𝘱𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘻𝘦 𝘮𝘺 𝘢𝘧𝘧𝘦𝘤𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯.
𝘖𝘶𝘳 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘯𝘦𝘤𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘣𝘦𝘤𝘢𝘮𝘦 𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘪𝘤𝘺 𝘳𝘦𝘧𝘭𝘦𝘤𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘴.
𝘐 𝘯𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘬𝘯𝘦𝘸 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘣𝘪𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘴.
𝘈𝘧𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘐 𝘨𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘰𝘧 𝘮𝘺 𝘢𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯.

It was December, I was at my lowest point much like the weather. Bradley hated me more than ever, Raymond finally blocked me and I had lost hope in ever trying to make it right. I feel like I lost everyone's trust. I didn't know what to do. I came across another guy named Samuel, I was introduced to him when I was accidentally walking in front of Bradley and him. Samuel wanted to know my Instagram so since I didn't find anything wrong with that, I gave it to him. Now before you start assuming anything, I didn't fall for Samuel!! I was still crushing on Bradley. What I've noticed between them is that they are really good friends and that's when an idea came to my mind. If I can be friends with Samuel, then I can get more information about Bradley and how he's feeling about me and maybe I can find a way to fix this. So the plan was to be friends with Samuel to get information and find a way to fix my friendship with Bradley. Another way to put it is by using Samuel for my own benefit. Which I know sounds really wrong because Samuel genuinely wanted to be friends with me and thought I was a nice person. Later on, you'll see why I regret this. I also made another mistake, I noticed Bradley wasn't feeling well and he was clearly distressed about something. I wanted to find out how I could help but I couldn't because if I got near him he would probably be pissed off at me. I was scared of him, I was scared of somebody that I love.

I do want to mention actually... Bradley had a cosplay account and I feel like I should tell you a bit of background knowledge on it. This was in December shortly after he blocked me on his personal account and let me tell you it was painful. Especially when it was actually him and he deceived me by pretending to be someone else. He contacted me first with needing help on the biology homework or project if you wanna put that way. I did try to help him unknowingly but that was something that needed to be done by a teacher and not me. Then, I responded to a story he posted on Instagram. The post had something that came off as sad and heartbroken. Of course, like any nice person, I wanted to see if I could help. He told me his story about him liking a girl a while back, confessing to her, getting rejected, and still in love with her while feeling regretful of being annoying towards her. I gave him my advice and I tried to help him as best as I could. He later asked me who I liked and I gave him my fabricated crush story about Jaden. Then he asked me about my fling and I told him it was Raymond but of course as we all know that was a decoy. In fact, the person that I actually liked was the complete opposite of Raymond. Next, he asked me about past crushes I've had. I mentioned my first, I mentioned my second, and I mentioned my third that was a lie. Unsurprisingly, he asked about the second one which was Bradley and he said "Which one? I know 3" and he gave me some options. I told him which one and he describes... technically himself. He said Bradley was a chill, doesn't get mad type, and lazy guy. Which I did have to agree with but I wanted to express my opinions. Luckily I did have self-control over myself not to say so.

Bradley on his cosplay account pretending to be someone else was obviously interested in himself. He wanted to know why I liked him and all that other stuff. He also told me what Bradley wanted in a girl. Wow!!! it's not like that demolished my self-esteem even more. By the way, I'm being sarcastic if you didn't now. I shared my confession story and he was shocked that I screenshot it. I mean...why wouldn't I? It's called using information for exposing people later. He later went on to describe Bradley's love life and whatnot. I asked him stuff about his childhood because I was curious and some other smaller topics. I am honestly surprised that he would tell all of this stuff to me. The more I think about it now, most of it might've been a lie because why would he tell me all this stuff when he hated me?

Then, he discussed how I wasn't considered a friend to Bradley for many reasons. I was annoying and that I was attention-seeking was the main reasons. He didn't want me in his life anymore and that I would never talk to him again. On the outside, I was completely fine because apparently I am moved on to someone else. On the inside, I knew the whole truth that I still loved this kid and I was even more broken than I was before.