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Happiness isn't always happy

𝘠𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘮𝘦.
𝘐 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘱𝘳𝘰𝘵𝘦𝘤𝘵 𝘪𝘵 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘯 𝘪𝘧 𝘪𝘵 𝘮𝘦𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘮𝘺 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦,
𝘉𝘶𝘵 𝘐 𝘬𝘯𝘦𝘸 𝘐 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥𝘯'𝘵 𝘣𝘦𝘤𝘢𝘶𝘴𝘦 𝘢 𝘱𝘢𝘳𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘭𝘮𝘰𝘴𝘵 𝘥𝘪𝘦𝘥.

𝘐 𝘴𝘢𝘸 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘪𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘮𝘰𝘴𝘵 𝘷𝘶𝘭𝘯𝘦𝘳𝘢𝘣𝘭𝘦 𝘮𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘴 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘐 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘤𝘳𝘺.
𝘒𝘯𝘰𝘸𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘐 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘴𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶,
𝘒𝘦𝘱𝘵 𝘮𝘦 𝘢𝘸𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘢𝘵 𝘯𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵.

Do you know when you thought you got everything you wanted? Or when you thought things should have had a happy ending? Well, I was thinking that way. I thought after all the lies I've told, I would be rewarded. Unfortunately, that wasn't the case at least not completely.

Me and Bradley were becoming close friends again and I was really happy. I thought everything would lead up to this perfect moment in time. Most of our conversations would happen in text and we would have some decent conversations about our interests in life. We would laugh at each other, we would make fun of each other, and we would kind of shit on each other too. Everything was going pretty well that I almost forgot about everything bad that happened before. I just thought it wouldn't matter at this point. What mattered was the now. It was a time of forgiveness and growth.

I remember one conversation we had he talked about a girl. He only mentioned her once in our conversation but he kept describing her in a sense that would make anyone question if they liked that person or not. Sure enough, he did once he sent me her Instagram profile. I've got to admit she was something but I had a weird feeling about this girl because she gave off a sort of bitchy vibe if you know what I'm saying. I still went on with life and took Bradley's word for it. Just to note, I did consider the fact that he would probably like another girl within any time frame. It's not like I didn't but I never expected it so soon. Bradley, for the next couple of conversations, would always bring up the girl he liked in some sort of way or another which I didn't really mind but sometimes he would poke me in the wrong way about it.

One day he really wanted to become friends with the girl and was thinking about a way to approach this in a nice manner without coming off as weird. I then thought about something I could do to help because I wanted him to be happy and seeing him talk about the girl always lit up his mood. That to me was more important than anything else. So then I kind of hinted that I would try to talk to the girl since I saw her in the mornings. For the next couple of days, I was trying to find...almost like an opening where I can just step in and say hi but it was much harder than I thought but I eventually did. All the seats in the benches were full except one where the girl's backpack was just in the way. I said politely if she could move it and she did and then we started having a conversation everything turned out great and my plan was working. I thought it was really nice but also pretty fake. Here's why I thought it was fake. I was acting fake and she seems to really like that type of persona instead of my other one. The girl seemed pretty fake her self like the way she would act it's not something that is unique. It's not like there's anything special about her no offense. I'm just saying it how it is. I've seen many many girls that are bitches that act that way in their own group and they only stick with that group. She also  doesn't seem very relatable even if she really tried and by that, I mean relatable in life. Yes, we can all have some same interests but the difference comes when you can really get on a level with someone.

As some time went on I kept getting information out of the girl and passing it on to Bradley. I guess you can call me the middle girl. Everything was going well and he was really finding me useful in someways. Until one day, something happened that was really unexpected. The girl blocked Bradley on Instagram. First of all,  petty move and secondly, we had no idea why at the time. Later on, since I did have contact with the girl on Instagram I asked her, "hey why do you do this to my friend?" and to the summit up, I would say...creepy. I felt really bad for Bradley not only because of that but because she was kind of a bitch anyway. The girl would block me later on, she probably found out that I was only using her but I didn't really care. I never wanted to be actual friends with her in the first place. I just don't want any drama.

Afterwords, Bradley went through phases because it's kind of a rejection phase for him. At first, he was mad, but then he was sad, and then he was ok again. Now I'm kind of laughing at this but I know I shouldn't be but it's just kind of funny. I was there through every phase during that time because he would text me about how he was feeling. I was just there being a supportive friend. There were some days...where he talked about how lonely he felt and how he feels about himself.  It hits you a certain way knowing that he feels down and you feel the need to comfort him but you know you can't. There were some hard days for me and it was basically that. Think about it like this, pretend you were chained to the wall and someone you loved was getting hurt right in front of you and you couldn't do anything about it. Yeah, that's how painful it was for me. I felt like my mouth was shut but I knew I wouldn't be even able to talk to him if I hadn't done what I did.  What I said to myself really helped me get through those days, "You know you love him and there are more ways to show love then what you know. Just take care of him any way that you can."