The Nerd Project (Re- writing)

7

What's your favorite song ?
Mine is 'No control & fools gold' by one direction.

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"I'm going to kill you if you hurt my baby."

"Whatever." I laughed "your jeep will be okay."

"She would not."

"Hmm" I hummed. We are on our way to get something to eat since Matt didn't want me to cook for him. He said I was planning his death .... It was his dream. He won't eat nothing I make him , not even a sandwich.

It's been about a week since my break down and since Matt asked me to be his girlfriend. Even though I feel like he's using me , I'm not going to do nothing about it. Yeah , it's going to come back and bite me in the ass but I want him. I want to know how love feels even though we're not in love. I want to cuddle , hold hands , be cared for. Even if he's acting , he's good at it.

"Teddy weddy" he sang moving his hand in front of my face.

"Boy , I'm driving. And don't call me that." I laugh "you have a death wish don't you."

"Nah" he said cooly "but you have one for me."

"I do not!"

"Yes yo--" he paused "turn here ! I want fast food."

Turning into Burger King I thought about the last time I was here.

"I want a toy!" nugget yelled from the back seat.

"I know I know , your going to get your toy." My mom laughed at his childish behavior.

"No , your not. You don't need a toy." I wanted to mess with him for some reason. His crying made me take back my every word I said. I hate when he cry , it's like a dying seal and it sounds like he can't breath sometimes and I hated every part of it. Who wouldn't hate that sound ? It makes it worst cause it'd coming from my baby brother.

"Teddy , move up." Matt said with a worried face.

Tears from in my eyes as I think of one of the last moments of my mother smiling. Smiling like her life was perfect. It was but wasn't at the same time , if that makes any sense. Me , Stefan , and my dad wasn't perfect but in our eyes we were. I'll give that to mother though , she kept this family sane , when she died so did my dad being sane. Just gone. Maybe it left with her ... Or he just thought he didn't need to be sane for his kids sake. Of course , he hates us.

"Oh , uh yeah." I mumbled. I've been blanking out lately , thinking of my mom and so called dad.

"You okay?" He asks.

'Wrong question' I thought ' you should have asked what's not wrong because nothing is right.' But I didn't say that.

"Nothing. I'm fine , just thinking about food." I say , hoping he would believe my stupid lie.

"Oh. Here." He handed me money for the food and I took of , not wanting to be here anymore.

"You want to go back to your house?" I asked after a while.

He's not answering me and I trying to think if I said something to piss him off. I can't think of anything ... "Matt." I try

"Matttyyy." I sang knowing he would answer.

He's head turned to face me and I watch in awe as I saw his mouth filled up with French fries. His face turned a dark shade of red and he looked away trying to finish his food. I was laughing so hard I forgot I was driving for a second. Trying to stop , I held my breath to clam down. Did it work? not at all.