The Nerd Project (Re- writing)

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What's your favorite movie ?
Mine is 'this is us'

Songs for this chapter
Drunk- Ed sheeran
Over again- One direction
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I used to think I was heartless. Just an heartless person with out a mom and a fucked up dad.

Just heartless.

I didn't cry when my mom first died , I think that's how I found out. I wanted to cry. I wanted to kill the doctors who couldn't save her. I wanted to cry soo bad. When I couldn't , I thought I never loved my mom. I thought I didn't care that she was gone.

One thing I knew , I felt something in my chest. That burning feeling. I thought the burning was a side effect of not having a heart.

I was wrong.

I can feel it now. I felt it when I walked home last night. I felt it when I woke up this morning. That burning is in my heart.

I know I have a heart , I can feel it breaking.

I felt it breaking when the hospital called saying my mother would never come home. I confused my hurt with emptiness.

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~Matt's POV~

I watched her walk away from me. Calling her a bitch was wrong; I know that , she kept trying to help me though. As stupid as that sounds , I didn't want her help. She's perfect , and I am not. I know she has her doubts about me , and she should. I'm only using her for money. But I think I'm falling too. Growing up with shit parents made me fearless of a lot of things .... I can't say that about my problem now. I fear she'll find out about the bet. How I'm using her . I fear she'll hurt herself because of me if she already haven't.

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"Hey Matt" Cameron said walking up to me "How's the bet going?" I cringed at the word.

But that's what it is , a bet. Yeah , one I stupidly agreed to.

I sighed "I don't know."

"Sure you do." He laughed. "She fallen for you yet?"

"Maybe , I don't know." Stupid fucking questions " She could have but I might have fucked that up."

"So what your saying is .... I'm ahead of you?" he grinned "I might take Teddy after I win this bet."

"What did you just fucking say?" I pushed him against a locker before I knew what I was doing.

His laugh surrounded me while I stood there with my hand on his neck , confused "I was kidding man , think of it as a test. Yo ass failed , you like her don't you."

"Fuck you." I spat and let him go.

He's right , I do like her. But what's new? I've been knew I liked her since I tracked her down in the hallway. I remember that day perfectly.

~Flashback~

"Are we blocking your locker or something? If not , what? Cause we were talking , rude." The first time I heard her voice. Her voice was simply amazing but I couldn't show her that I'm a sap

"Ahh , you must be .... Teddy. Right?" My confidence spoke for me

"Yeah." She answered low as if any louder she'll be yelling.

"Thought so. We're going on a date tonight , wear something nice." I wink

"What? No! No way. I don't even know you." Teddy complained.

'Too bad' I thought but didn't say that

"I'm Matt. Pick you up at eight love." I've always wanted to call somebody 'love' for some odd reason.

~End of flashback~

"Look , there she is." He says like in blind "oooh , and she looks like shit."

I punched him in his arm even though he was right , but shit wasn't the right word. Bad. She looks bad. Yeah ... I think shit is better now.

Teddy looks like shit.

"Heey , matty." Teddy slurs

"Teddy ," I paused "have you been drinking?"

"No." She laughs "Okay , maybe a little." She giggles.

Just keeps laughing at nothing. She never drank before , sure as hell won't like the idea if drinking in a couple of hours.

"Come on , let's get you home." I know I can't take her home , not with that fuck up of a father. I put my arm around her waist trying to help her stand up while thinking of where I can take her.

"No. I don't want to go home. I want to drink with Carter."

"Who is Carter?" she already found somebody else?

"My new drinking buddy , duh ."

"Your drinking buddy? Teddy , you hate drinking and what it did to your dad." I paused , getting ready for the worst "What made you drink?"

"You , you idiot." She spat.

See , the worst. I knew she was going to say me ... I just hoped some other kid fucked up too.

"I'm sorry."

"Sorry? I try to help you and you call me a bitch. An annoying bitch at that and you thin--"

I cut her off by smashing my lips to hers. "I know , Im stupid." I mumbled against her lip before kissing her again. Her arms went around my neck while mine wrapped around her back.

"Forgive me?"

Please say yes , please say yes.
Why does it sound like I just asked Teddy to marry me? See I'm turning into a sap.

"Sure matty." She's still drunk and I really don't know what to do with her. "Let's pick up nugget and get ice cream."

"Yeah , okay."

"And maybe done Advil." I laugh and wrap my arm around her as we walked out of the school.

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Should I put songs for the chapter ?

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