Pull and Push (On Editing)

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Mew pov

I don't know what to do anymore. What did I do wrong? Rather than loving him. Why did he do this to me? Still, I can't understand him, he gave all hope to me but he threw me away like trash.

I'm in pain like hell. It had been two months since Art did this to me. Still, I couldn't forget anything about him. I didn't contact anyone, I didn't get out of my apartment cause of media people.

My family, friends, and my manager called me daily but I didn't respond to them. I just spent all my time in my bed, thinking about every moment I spent with him, and chanted a single question in my mind How can he do this to me? And My eyes continuously swell with tears.

That's when I heard a calling bell, I got my lazy legs to see who it was. When I opened my door I saw my mom. I didn't expect her. I opened the door to let her in.

Once she got in, she hugged me tightly like her life depended on me and asked in a cracked tone, "My baby how are you dear? I was so worried about you".

I hugged her back tightly and cried on her shoulder as much as I could. She tapped my back gently and consoled me. After a while, she cleaned my apartment made some of my favorite dishes, and voiced from the kitchen, "Mew, Take a shower and come for lunch"

I lifted myself to the bathroom and took a hot shower which made me relax and refresh. Then I walked into the dining room while she arranged all the dishes she made and said, " Eat up baby".

I can't cause I lost my appetite long ago. She sighed, picked up the chopsticks, brought them to my mouth, and voiced, "You should eat at least to feel depressed dear. Look at yourself so thin and weak. If you want to feel down, first eat and then feel down. OK?"

By hearing her I feel so emotional. I remembered who forgot me but I forgot who cares and loves me. Just I realized my mistake. I should move on, life should go on. Time will heal everything.

I got chopsticks from my mom and began to eat as fast as I could. She chuckled sweetly. After lunch, I placed my head in her lap, and now my mind felt relieved. She stroked my hair, my eyes feel heavy I don't know when I fell asleep.

After a long nap, I woke up, it's been a long I had a good nap. I searched for my mom, no sign of her. I went kitchen to get water. There I see her note in the fridge door. "Eat well and get well soon" I smiled at seeing that.

The next morning I called my manager and my best friend Rio to my place. After a couple of hours, they came here. My bestie voiced with a chuckle, "Hey man, what a surprise you're still alive!" I rolled my eyes at him.

My manager smashed Rio's head and asked, "Are you trying to ruin my job?" I heaved a breath and queried, "So you two didn't worry about me?"

They laughed together and my manager said, "Not like that man. We were worried that you drowned yourself in tears because of your stupid love" I just huff at him.

He raised his hands and said, "OK. OK. But don't waste yourself on useless things. You are a very talented person so please be confident, and get back to your work" I nodded my head like agreeing and voiced, "Hmm. I decided to"

My friend squealed and said in exciting tone, "Oh! That's great buddy, then it's time to celebrate." I rolled my eyes and said, " As always thinking about parties."

Rio jumped and said, Of course, This is the age to enjoy not to worry buddy" I know I can't win this argument so I smiled and said, "OK. Let's go somewhere. I will change first" Rio cheered, "That's the spirit. Go. Go. Hurry!" I left them in the living room and changed my clothes for the club.

It's been eight months.

Everything went well. University, friends, family, and career. Slowly I began to move forward but still, I couldn't forget him because wherever I go, I see him, We used to explore all places in the city.

My apartment holds so many memories so I shift to another. Even though I miss him like hell I decided to live for the sake of people who love me. I smiled often, went on trips with my friends, and attended some auditions for further projects.

One day my manager called me, I attended and said, "Hello". He yelled, "Mew" I pulled back my phone for a second and asked, "What happened P' Why are you screaming? Gosh my ear"

He chuckles and says, "You got a role in the new series ThranType. You have been selected for a character" I smiled wide and replied, "Wow P' that's great."

He continued, "Tomorrow there is the first workshop to get introduction and your character file." I answered, "OK P' I will be there in time." With that, I hung up.

The next morning I went to the assigned destination. I didn't expect anything because of what happened. I just wanted a role to prove myself as an actor. So I was ready to do any role.

That's why I auditioned for a side character who appeared only in two episodes. This is a BL series, nothing new for me.

The second male lead I mean a bottom is a new face, I was just watching all his activity. He looked too manly for a bottom. Usually, bottom characters would look cute or feminine but he is neither one.

I get that he didn't feel the character of a bottom, the way of shyness. He looks so stiff when some co-actors try a kiss him.

The director asked me to act with him I know why, cause she knows I have experience. The scene I should do is crease his cheeks with love, look into his eyes, and then kiss his lips. I walked to him and introduced myself to him.

He smiled brightly to show his braces and said, "Hello P' I am Gulf. I am new to this so teach me something useful" I nodded and said, "OK. Sure, Shall we begin?" he nodded and said, "Sure"

I got close to him and placed my hand on his cheeks. My mind screamed It's not as soft as Art's. Then I look into his eyes. No electric effect like Art's. Then I slowly tilted my head towards him and kissed his lips. First, it's just a peck, and also my mind yelled It's not as good as Art's.

I cursed my mind, "Shit! Why are you thinking of him?"  and I concentrated on the guy before me, slowly Art's face faded. I began to deepen the kiss, and within a second he reversed my kiss with full force.

I grabbed his waist for better access, and in impact he hugged my shoulders tight, When I swept my tongue in his lips, he opened his mouth, I entered his and explored it thoroughly. I tightened the grip around his waist to make him gasp.

I dominated the kiss like there was no tomorrow. The kiss became intense I felt somewhat like I didn't wanna stop suddenly I felt his grip tighten on my shoulder which told me he lacked oxygen so I pulled back but I didn't intend to make the smooch sound.

We are immersed in it like we didn't give a shit about others. Loud applause breaks our world. Shit! It's been a long time since I got hot with a kiss. Seriously? Mew after what happened? I frowned at my mind. My thought bubble popped when The director voiced, "Mew you gonna play as Tharn"

I was shocked would be an understatement, I was worried so I panicked and voiced, "But P". She cut me and said, "You are the only one who makes this manly man shy and comfortable. So you play Tharn. Then your chemistry is too good." 

I smiled and voiced, "Thanks P'" With that I slid my gaze to Gulf, but he didn't make any eye contact with me. I wonder why he kissed me like that.

The scene says that just a peck. I don't know what this will bring to my life. But I learned some lessons from my past co-actor in a very hard way so he is just a mate to act with rather than nothing much.

To be continued.