Pull and Push (On Editing)

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Art pov

I can't fight back that newbie for his words, because what he told is the truth. I did so bad things to Mew. I don't deserve him. When he grab my Mew away from me, I feel like someone take away my heart with blood and flesh with bare hands, I feel that much pain. But my feet are glue to ground, I can't run to him to get him back. I realize now how precious I lost in my life.....

I didn't take my eyes from him, till he disappeared into the function hall. After a while, I get back to my place. My team mates recognised that I had something. They asked me that am I ok?? I lied to them and make up some silly stories. Somewhat they believed. My eyes still on him, he was sitting with that newbie few seats before me.  They were comfortable with one another, they smiled often, that newbie didn't take his hand from Mew. He used napkins to dry his(Mew) sweat. They get all attention,  I brought misfortune to him but that newbie been lucky charm to my Mew. He became more fame than before. I controlled myself not to cry. They announced the results for best kiss and couple, they won. That newbie hugged him, they were happy, I also happy for him to get award but I also sad he get with that with that newbie. Somewhat he looked uneasy I can tell that. The host was teasing them. It's natural here, once a couple on the screen became favourite for the people they will ship them to the extent. Mew and I already go through this a lot. He looking forward to the audience, suddenly that newbie grab him for tight hug and kissed him. All were screaming, I can't see that so I ran as fast as I can,until my breath gave up. I sad down on my knees,tucked my face into it and cried aloud. I don't care about any thing else.. After some time I pulled myself together, went to rest room, I washed my face, I walked barely, I stopped by the balcony, I just stared at the sky. I thought all the memories together with him, just tears swelled up. I behaved like a coward back then, I didn't had the courage to accept my own feelings. But that newbie is new to this feild, his feelings for Mew may affect his  future, his studies but he didn't care about that, he has such courage to accept his feelings and show it to the world. Wow! He is just unbelievable. Mew deserve such person not a coward like me who can accept himself. I am such a loser, who pushed back the luck of my life. I shouldn't stand in his way to happiness, he deserves that newbie not me. By thinking like this my tears bacame more. I was sobbing by forgetting where I was. There I heard his voice.. I was scared to turn. I wiped my tears. Turned towards him. By seeing his face, I just want to hug him, tuck my face into his hard chest, to smell his original clong. But I hold myself, I tried to get out,he grabbed my hands and placed me in the wall, my heart was racing like crazy, I loved this feeling, I want him now, I remembered that real kiss were shared, I want his hot tounge all over me now. I snapped out my thoughts no..... I can't... I can't have him ... He deserves better.. he asked me for the explanation . I decided to move away from his life and from his memories so I lied to him that I did that because I didn't like him. I know he will found out whenever I lied to him. So I didn't dare to see his eyes, I pushed him hard and ran away from there.I was so upset that I lied to him. I went to my favourite bar, there came my old friend Sam. He was a friend from my high school. Once he saw me hesitated to talk, we were close back there but we lost contact because he went to  Korea for studies. I voulentreed to talk to him.

Art: Hello.. Are you Sam?

Sam: Yep.. I am... You are Art... Right?..

Art: When do came back from Korea.

Sam: Two months back.. do you remember me and I went to Korea..

Art:  Are you crazy? Why do I forgot you. We were friends nha....

Sam: It was long time ago nha... I thought you would forgot me... because you were famous now..

Art: Stop.. this nonsense.. I am still your crazy Art....

Once I told that he grabbed my neck tight, crushed me and hit in my head with bright smile..

Sam: Yeah crazy... How are you doing?

Art: Well man.. but first leave me or else I will die. (Chuckled)

He leave me, I sat next to him. We ordered tequila. We chatted this and that.

Sam: Art... Why is your eyes look puffy?Did you cry?

Art: little...

Sam: why ? Man ...

Art: I have no one to discuss about this. I trust you, so can you hear me.

Small droplets of tears formed, he rubbed my shoulders to console me. I told him all and every details about me and Mew. How did I damaged his life, now how I found the real culprit, how I feel now, finally the lie I told him today. He listened carefully all I said. He gave a hug to console me, I poured all tears on his shoulder. After a while I felt less burden, that I put my weight somewhere.

Sam: You are still crazy Art. Why do you lie to him???

Art: Because that's good for him. He deserves better.

Sam: Who are you to judge what's good for him and what he deserves.. what if he still feel for you.. is it ok for you to see them together. ???

Art: No .... He don't feel that way

Sam: Are you sure. Then why did he asked for the explanation after all this time. If he really moved on with that newbie , why did he act close with you. Are you child not to understand this?

Art: About the kiss ......ki...

Sam: Don't be silly Art.. Mew is a guy who can make a guy to fall on his feet with his charm and good character. Definitely that newbie fell for him. So he did kiss him publicly. Did Mew kiss him ?? No...nha... Then.. he still feel for you silly... First go for him... Grab him.... Hold him tightly not to slip from you once again.... Tell him the truth and your feelings.... Got it....

By hearing his words I got all hope back... Yes my Mew can't move forward, he still feel for me, I feel for him, I definitely beat that newbie and I will get him back with my Mew... I smiled ear to ear... I hugged my Friend with excitement he stoked my hair.

Sam: Crazy.....

After that night, I tried to go to his apartment secretly but three is no sign of him. So I get the elevator to get to parking lot, for my surprise,his manager get the elevator with me. He didn't recognize me because I wore mask. He mumbled himself.

Manager: where did he stayed yesterday? Shall I call Gulf... No.. yesterday he also asked for him... He can't know...

He got a call, he was talking in the phone.

Manager: Hello.. yes... We will be in airport at 2.40.. ok we will... After we return from Philippines, let's have photo shoot. Yep... Ok.. we will come after four days...... ok.. bye ...

I get to know his program.. so after four days I will tell him every thing and I will ask him to forgive me.. I can't hurt him more... I know my Mew he will definitely forgive me... I am waiting for you Mew....

To be continued........