Pull and Push (On Editing)

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Mew POV

Why did I kissed him. I can't believe myself. Did am I that desperate for sex or  did am I think him more than a friend. What am I thinking, no I can't do this, I can't take advantage of him even he have feelings for me. I am confused. Like this we came near red carpet, I just snapped out from my thoughts and went professional. We did our job. We were asked to gave some intimate pose for photographers, I hugged him from back and placed my chin in his shoulder,when his back landed in my body my heart beat raised up. What's this I had this feeling long before but why now. We already acted many intimate sences,I  didn't feel anything but now it's different after that kiss. I tilt my head to see his face,my heart beat raced faster now. Then we stare into our eyes for pose still we were holding our hands. Wow! How beautiful eyes he has, his pinkish lips, dark eyebrows. Did he had this cute face before or did he look cute today? Shit! I snapped my head, why am I thinking like this?! He is not my type, he was manly man not cute. No .....no...... I can't. my mind shouting out to take my gaze from him but I can't.  After that reporters interviewed us. We crossed the entrance and walking though the hall way. I was wondering about my mind. Why am I like this? Did his presence make me to change like this, to forget my past ? Do I still have the potential to love someone? Can I do that? Like this my mind is full of worries, I didn't see anything something soft crashed me and bounce back to fell. I pulled closer to my chest, his face fix into mine. The familiar hair smell that I can't forget, now my heart going to jump out of me. He lifted his head to see me. Yes!! I am right .. it's him Art. A soft smile framed in his cute little face, he is still doing this magic to me, once I saw his smile all confusion, worries and tension all disappeared in thin air. He stared deep into my eyes, my eyes pooled so I can't take good look at his cute face, we stared at each other for minute. Gulf shooked my shoulder with grip.

Gulf: P'...P'....

Mew: Hmmm....

I turned my gaze to him. He smiled bright... What's this situation... What am I going to do. Now Art and Gulf staring like they killing each other with their ferious gaze. I was standing with blank expression. Gulf started talk to Art.

Gulf: Hello P'Art. I am Gulf. I wish you know me, P'Mew's new partner.

He leaves out his hand to Art. He didn't gave his hand back to him instead he came with answer.

Art: Partners may change in acting but not in life newbie. You will understand soon.

Gulf smirked at Art. He didn't give any expression.

Gulf: Some partners will change the life P'.. like good or bad...

When he told that word "bad" he pointed his finger towards Art. He(Art) hang down his head, he locked his eyes to floor. Somewhat my heart felt guilty. I a step towards him. Gulf grab my hand. I turned.

Gulf: P' it's getting late. Come let's leave.

Before I speak he pulled me to the function hall. We sat in the seats allocated for us. He was so happy, I forced myself to smile often but all mind is just confusion. Why this is happening , can't I live peacful life? I can't move forward, I can't go back what should I do now. What Art is thinking now. He is the one who pushed me back but now his eyes telling something different. What's that? I should do get this over. I should talk to him. I can't concentrate in the function. Gulf again shooking my shoulder with bright smile. I looking him with confused look.

Gulf: We won P'...

He pulled me to tight hug, we went to the stage. They gave the award for best kiss and as best couple of this year. Gulf smile ear to ear. I too smile at all but my eyes wandering to check where is Art.  It's too bright in the stage so I can't find him. Suddenly Gulf pecked a kiss in my lips and hugged me tight all the audience shouting like crazy, I don't know what to do, I hugged him back. What is he thinking? Why did he kissed me like this in public? Function host teased us, somewhat I managed to get out of that situation. We get down from the stage all other actors wished us. Still my eyes wandering around to catch him. But I can't see him anywhere. After a while I went to use rest room. I was getting back, while I crossed the balcony, I heard some sobbing sound. I wonder who is crying here. I went to see, for my surprise I saw Art showing the back to me seeing the sky. I can sense he was crying because he wiping his eyes and sobbing. I get closer to him, stopped a inch away from him.

Mew: What are you doing here?

He suddenly rubbed his eyes and turned towards me. Once he saw me he looked away from me.

Art: What are you doing here?

Don't ask question for question. Just answer.

Art: Came to get fresh air.

Still he didn't make eye contact with me.

Mew:(sighed) You know I can tell when you lie. Then why are you trying to lie to me Art??

Art: Don't try to act that you know me well😡

Mew: But that's true Art. I know you well.

He tried to walk away, I grab his wrist, placed him in the wall, locked him in-between my arms,he looking me nervous not only him but also I am so nervous ,I didn't show off that but my damn heart cheated me,it is drumming like all can hear. I can hear his to. We didn't dare to speak until our heart calm down.

Art: Can you move? I should go

Mew: I want to ask you something. Can you answer me?

Art: What?

Mew: Can you explain why did you do that?

Art: Because I don't like you.  .

He said those words without seeing me, I know he was lying. But I can't take that,my legs were shaky now.
He pushed me hard and ran away from there. I lost my mind, I forgot everything around me, I get back to parking lot, get my car, drive as fast as I can. I stopped before my friend's bar. He wasn't there. So no one questioned me. I drank all, I just want to forget him,his answer... I head dizzy now, after a while all went blurry, I felt someone hanging me. All went blank.....

Morning rays hit my face to wake me. I felt something weighted on me. I barely opened my eyes,once I saw the situation my eyes went wide. I was lying naked with Gulf in my chest with naked body.

What the Hell?????!!!!

To be continued.......