Pull and Push (On Editing)

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Gulf POV

Today we were participating in award function so I got ready for make over. I was so excited because this was the first time I am participating in such function and that's with P' Mew. We were close now, he was comfortable with me. I was so happy about that. He is sleeping in my lap or shoulders, he cared about me in all way from my food, studies, friends and family. I took him to meet my family, they were so happy to know him.

He cleared his way of thoughts towards me but I still hope he eventually accept my feelings. He just think me as friend and brother but every single day I fell for him deeply, he didn't give any hope or mislead but my heart lost control since I saw him. It's not about sex but about feelings, I am not labeling me as gay, I know he was a man still I have feelings for him. And Don't know why though.

I can't leave him. Now I worried about future like what am I going to do after this project, we can't meet daily as we do now, what if he going to involve in another project, do I have strength to see him close with another person whether it's a man or woman. My mind is full of questions without answers. I stroke my hair in frustration. My ringtone snapped me back to reality. It's him. Once I saw his face in my display all my frustration smoke out in thin air. A bright smile in my face. I picked, "Hello, P' "

He chuckled, "What's makes your mood that good today?" I snort

Gulf: hmm. . Exited. !!!

Mew:(laugh loud) childish.  Ok get ready I will pick up you at ten.

Gulf: Waiting P' bye. 

Mew: Bye.

After that I finished my morning routines, he picked me , we went for make over,we get hair cut, get styled, get dressed in perfect black suit,I felt like we were getting ready for marriage. He look too hot and handsome in that suit. I just wanted to swallow him fully until my heart hunger fulfill. What a perfect figure he has, flawless skin, electric power eyes, slender pink lips, muscular vein arms, broad shoulders, manly voice all making me crazy, I just want to make him all mine to my rest of my life.  I can't understand P'Art, why he left this heavenly creature all alone. But I feel happy that I got the opportunity to grab this wonderful man in my life. I was still gasp air through my mouth,he snapped his long, slender fingers before my face, my heart racing like thousand horses running together..

Gulf: P'Mew... You are handsome that I can't handle..

I placed my hands on my heart and pending like fall, he grab my waist,pull towards him and smile brightly.

Mew: Gulf... you are always childish. You too look hot and handsome.

Gulf: Hmmm.Did I look handsome not cute?

Mew: Men are supposed to be handsome Gulf. Not cute...

Gulf: That's why I am asking? Don't you see me in the way cute?

He blinked his eyes like don't want to answer me. I was curious to hear his words, there came his annoying manager.

Manager: What are you two still doing here? Come on its already late, let's leave...

He smiled with relief,I got irritated. I force myself to smile, we get into the company caravan. Our ride was silent. When we reached, he grabbed my hands, we interwinded our fingers, I hold him tightly. He smiled brightly at me. I am getting nervous

Mew: Nervous...

I nodded my head fast. He placed his forehead on mine,now our face was away just a inch. My heart was pounding erotically.

Mew: You can do this..we can... To make people happy...

He still smiling, Now I lost my mind all went blank

Gulf: But now I want to be happy with you at least in this moment...

I pulled his neck for sudden kiss, his eyes went wide. He slightly pushing me but I don't care anymore now all I just want is to kiss him what ever the concequence let's see later.. first he protest after I suck his lips, he reverse my kiss, he began to suck me back, now I closed my eyes to enjoy the moment, he asked for entrance I allowed him with full hearted ,he explored all nook of my mouth. Our tounge duel with fight he grab my waist,I landed on his lap,I hold his neck we were just making out. Again that annoying manager snap out our making session by his phone call. In a second he push me back to my seat. Adjust his suit and hair. Attend his call.

Mew: Hello..P'

Manager: What are you two still doing in caravan ? Come to entrance..

Mew: Ok P'

He cut the call,we were silent for a minute. He started

Mew: Sorry Gulf.. please forget what happened here. That will be good for both of us.

Gulf: But P'

Mew: No but's Gulf. Please come let's get professional.

Before I speak something he get off from caravan,I followed him until the entrance his face looked worried and irritated,once we step in the red carpet his face glow with smile. I thought what a fake life a actor having but he deserves better. Again we hold each other without hesitation he smiled at me after what I done. I was happy to be close with him and also afraid what will he do after this function.. we gave many hugging and close pose for the photographers. All fans were shouting at us. He continuously smiling at all of them. Some what I felt guilty. I shouldn't done that. I know his heart was not in good condition even though he smile.
Reporters asking some personal and professional questions, he answered them perfectly. We were walking though the hall way, we already crossed all photographers and reporters. No third eye now now he back to his worried face.. I step closer to him but his pace became fast, he locked his eyes on floor. He crashed into little cute creature who bumped into him. When that little creature supposed to fell, P' Mew grab his shoulder, pulled towards him and hold his waist. Once I get to see his face my world turned up side down..  It's none other than P'Art.....

To be continued.......