Pull and Push (On Editing)

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Gulf pov

I didn't expect this. At least his body needed me. I hope soon his heart will need mine. After what he said that night, I was broken, but when he tempted me, I can't hold anymore, I should try, I confessed to him, he accepted, but I know him he didn't accept me hole heartedly. I want to heal him, I will. Today he was going to play piano in fan meet, I am just going to support him, I am not a guy into music but he loves it.  After this two wild rounds I feel like my hip is gonna
break, I feel sore all over. He went out to get something. I wonder every thing will be alright soon. Door sound bring me to world again.

Mew: I am back..

Gulf: Hmmm...

Mew: Get up.. have this congee. And take this medicines.

I furrowed my brows.

Gulf: What's this for?

Mew: I know,you are tired and sore. Have this you will feel better. And by the way don't you ever try to seduce me, you will be the one gonna be in trouble (smirking)

I chuckled softly, get up from bed, went closer to him, snake my arms around his neck.

Gulf: It's ok to be in trouble for...ME....with YOU.... BOOO... but I will never stop from tempting you..

He slightly crashed his forehead with mine and chuckled sweetly.

Mew: ohi.. what did you call me... BOO.. What's that...

Gulf: Just I want to... Shall I..

Mew: Hmmm...(chuckled)

Then we had our dinner, he unwrapped the tablets, gave water to take it. After  for a while we watched TV. He was concentrated on it, but I just amazed by him, by his features. Suddenly his reaction was changed into something, a small water drop formed in his eyes, his faced filled with sorrow. I turned my gaze into TV. P'Art... He was smiling brightly with his team mates in some TV show. Shit! I don't know what to do, what am I going to do to heal him from the scar he gave my Boo. I just kept my palm on his shoulders, I don't know what came to his mind, he turn off the TV in fraction of second. He turned to me with bright smile... I was shocked with his response and I also worried..

Mew: Gulf.. it's boring. Come let's sleep.

Gulf: Boo.. can we talk..?

Mew: About what??

Gulf: About you

Mew: What about me. I am fine..

Gulf: Boo.. as a actor you can act to other but you can't act to me.. and I don't like it.

Mew: No.. I didn't.. I..was... just...

Gulf: Boo.. I know that you still feel for him, you can't completely over him. I accept that fact, but I love you. You can tell me anything that bothers you. You can't fade yourself for me, you should be you, that's what I want. Please let me know everything. your pain, your joy, your feelings, your love and your hate . I am not that silly to behave like jealously boyfriend.(chuckled)

Once he heard me, he grabbed me for tight very tight hug. He tucked his face into my crock of my neck, I felt wet, oh god he was crying.. somewhat my heart felt weight. I rubbed his back and stroke his hair to console him. After a few minutes he faced me, he rubbed my cheeks with his thumb that's when I realized I too cried. I wiped his tears, we sobbed. He dropped his head in my shoulder and began to speak.

Mew: I want to tell you something..

Gulf: Hmm. Any thing..

Mew: You're right.. I can't forget him that easily.. he had so much effect on me. You deserve better Gulf , that's why I avoided you. My heart was fully broken that I unable to stick together to give to you.. I know just sex is not a thing to be in relationship. I want to give you everything but I am not ready for that. I am not for feeling. But I do care you, I like you, you been great with me in all aspects like being a co star, a friend, a brother and even a sex buddy. But I am nothing a selfish who used your genuine feeling for my body and as my distraction. How crazy today morning I nodded my head in evening I was thinking about Art.. I am not the one Gulf. You deserve better. Even he ruined my life he didn't love me back still I am thinking, worrying, loving him .. I don't know what to do... But I am so sorry that I used you...  Sorry....

He tucked his face in my lap and again cried, I waited until he pour out fully, I just rubbed his back. After he stop. I spoke.

Gulf: Boo... Listen me carefully.. I know you still love him and you just had with me sex because you was attracted with my body, I am not a child to not understand that. But like the way you love P'Art, I love you. Even you don't love me back or even you just use me, I don't care I just love you. That's it.. let's see who's love is winning. I will wait for you to give me your heart, until that I will be loving you every day and I will be your distraction with sex. I am ready for that. You can be selfish with me. But don't tell me not to love you. Please...Boo.... Please...na... please...

He smiled softly, stroke my hair gently

Mew: your are stubborn and crazy but I feel guilty.... Gulf....

Gulf: Don't be na.... Just say yes...

Mew:Hmmm... I will try my best for you... That I don't feel guilty..

I smiled brightly, we went to bed, we cuddle, I tucked my face into his hard chest. We don't know when we fell asleep.... Morning rays hit our eyes... I tossed in the bed, something heavy on my lower part, I pull our the sheet, it's my Boo's legs.. I tried to get rid of it, he grab me for hug, I chuckled into his neck, he said five more minutes, I went to his beautiful slender lips and pecked in it, he smiled sweetly without opening his eyes..

Gulf: Wake up Boo... Let's get ready...

Mew: Hmmm...

I pulled him but he was so heavy to move. He pulled me I fell top of him, he kissed me gently. After that we took shower, get to restaurant for breakfast, went to makeover for fan meet. We reached the spot, all were screaming, welcoming us with sweet hearts. In the stage he was singing and playing piano. I was just wondering the wonderful heavenly creature in front of me voicing out heavenly music for me. I was just admiring his long slender fingers that waving in the piano, his sweet lips touching the mick. I was wondering what am I going to do to keep him with me all my life. But I will do anything for him......

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To be continued.......