diabla

rainy days

we cheered as me and ethan walked into the money room and saw all the money 13 gave us. they smiled as the were sorting it out making sure everything was there and real.

i gave ethan a kiss and he had his arm around me.

"diabla and diablo, you're money is half way to getting counted."

"good. make sure it's all there" said ethan

they nodded. five teen people working on money. bliss. cameron was at school and we are going out to eat tonight. i don't know where but ethan said he'll surprise us.

"hi mom! hi dad" said cameron getting i to the car.

"how was school" asked ethan.

"it was boring today actually. our teacher was making us do math all day and she was mad at us"

"what did you guys do"

"i did nothing. but the guys wouldn't stop talking" she said

"wow" i said

"all because of them" she said putting her seatbelt on as we got on the main road. ethan put music on.

"mommy. can i go on your phone" she asked.

i nodded and gave her my fake phone. ethan put his hand out so i could take. i smiled and held his hand. bliss was the only feeling i had for two weeks. no drama, flooded with money and happy.

"baby can you go get it please" i asked ethan as he was laying down on our bed. i was getting ready for our date night

he got up and went downstairs. the house was quiet and i heard ethan call my name. i sighed and went downstairs.

"who's at the door" i asked as i saw ethan standing in front of the door. he didn't respond as i got to him

"it's for you" he said

i was clueless to who it could possibly be. i never invited anyone over today. or did i and i just forgot. i opened the door and my jaw dropped.

"hi valerie" i heard my mother's voice. i felt my eyes water. she has not changed very much but she dyed her hair lighter and she does still look young but, she's like in her late 50s.

"oh my god" i went in to hug her. she grabbed my wrists and pushed them away. i felt my heart be stepped on. did she just reject my hug. my own mom.

"i came quickly valerie, i need your help"

"sorry i don't know you" i said closing the door. she stopped it with her foot.

"you don't close the door on your mother. i need money"

"my mom died when i was 18. get off my property now before i have my guard dogs escort you out." i said sternly looking at her dead in the eye. she was shocked and i slammed the door. i turned my back to the door. don't cry don't cry don't cry. i took a deep breath. i could see ethan looking at me from the corner of my eye. i calmed down and went back up to get ready.

"we don't have to go if you don't want to" said ethan going up to
me

"why wouldn't i want to go"

"your mo-. the lady seemed to put you in a bad mood"

"i don't know her." i said. i know i'm lying and i want to burst into tears but i refuse to. ethan slowly walked behind me. i avoided looking at the mirror to avoid his gaze on me. i started to put my makeup away slamming things and being overly aggressive. my mascara fell and i felt extremely annoyed immediately.
"fucking dumbass mascara" i said picking it up. i slammed it in my bag. the curling iron would fit in my drawer and i caught myself pounding the drawer to close. i was wanted to rip the drawer out and stomp on it. i knocked over my makeup bag out of frustration knowing something broke in there. i looked at ethan, he had a surprised expression as he looked at the makeup bag. he hugged me from behind. i immediately calmed down. i turned around and hugged him. he hugged back. i felt a tears fall then i started to sob.

"don't cry baby" he said. he picked me up and took me to the bathroom putting me on the counter. i looked at him feeling like shit and worthless. i carefully wiped my tears trying his best not to mess up my makeup. i sniffed as he lifted my chin. he turned me around making me face the mirror. my legs going crisscrossing each other.

"what do you see"

"me" i said actually unimpressed and somewhat disappointed in the hot mess i am right now

"wrong answer" he kissed my cheek "i see an independent woman that is a boss ass bad ass bitch" he said

i laughed a bit. he smiled.
"and you know it. either you try to tell me otherwise" he said flipping me around to look at me.

"i love you so much ethan grant dolan" i said

he smiled. i gave him a kiss and he kissed back. i jumped off the counter and hugged him. he hugged back. the safe feeling came for me. i felt safe by just simply hugging him then being guarded by 100 guards. it felt like coming home after a long vacation. the certainty that everything will be okay in the end. in the end when everything burns to the ground and we're just two other souls being squished and slaughtered by the cycle of life.