𝗐𝖺𝗇𝖽𝖾𝗋𝗅𝗎𝗌𝗍༄ | 𝖻𝗎𝗀𝗁𝖾𝖺𝖽

𝗐𝗁𝖾𝗇 𝗃𝗎𝗀𝗀𝗂𝖾 𝗆𝖾𝗍 𝖻𝖾𝗍𝗍𝗒

sad is what i feel,
i can't conceal.
•—————♥—————•
three hours later
𝗃 𝗎 𝗀  𝗃 𝗈 𝗇 𝖾 𝗌

drinking the liquid out of the bottle seems like every single day of my adulthood since Melody. she cheated on me with some guy and accused me of cheating on her with my sIStEr

honestly, she was dumb and was trying to get out of the situation with dumber choices but those dumb choices made me fall in love

i loved her for years until she cheated, we were the perfect couple and was happy all the time but her dumb decisions made worse consequences and we broke up because of her choices

i wish she didn't kiss someone else,

i wish i was good enough for her,

i wish i was good enough for everybody

now i just drink and wallow in the apartment above my bar.

a tear escapes my eye as i think about the good times with mel, our breakup was just a year ago and i'm still not over her. i suck at moving on.

i hear the door opening so i wipe my tear away and put down the bottle. it was toni, my life long best friend that cheers me up when i'm down. now it's her morning and night job.

"up and at it, Jones"
toni said while leaning down and picking up the bottles on the floor

"that's a lot of bottles"
i said pointing at the stack of bottles in front of me

"yeah no shit"
toni said while getting all the bottles and juggling them in her arms

"i'll help you wi-"
i sat up, trying to help toni but i  couldn't even finish my sentence because of my intake of alcohol

i sat back down and try to massage my head. toni put the bottles in the trash while taking some clothes for me to wear.

"honestly, you should sober up and take care of the bar you fucking own" toni whispers while tossing me the clothes

"fine, i'll just shower and go down" i said, she's just realizing that i heard what she said in the silence of my apartment.

"good, see you later also fangs will make you dinner" toni said with no reaction from earlier before closing the door and leaving me alone with my thoughts.

i get up before i stumble and go to my bathroom. i pulled the shower curtains and got in while turning on the knob.

when the hot water hits my skin, i sigh in delight.
[boooooo you unholy person]
it's been a while since i showered, a few hours ago maybe.

my life has been so complex since mel, my bar almost got shut down, my friends started to leave me and go to mel because they believed her more than me, only toni, fangs, and sweet pea stayed by my side after everything went down.

even though mel has made me suffer so much, i still feel bad for her. she has suffered way more than i have, she has been through so much...

her father went to jail and revealed to her that's she has a half sister named Penny while her mother forgave her father even though he made their family feel so much pai-