//𝙩𝙬// 𝙘𝙝𝙚𝙖𝙩𝙞𝙣𝙜 //
"baby," I called out from downstairs on my boyfriend "I'm back, cuddly bear"
(thanks diana)
I set the grocery bags down smiling when I think of how I get to see Xavier's face everyday
"angel?" I call out again when I hear no reply but being interrupted by moans making me cringe, I never really knew what's the point of sex
I climb up the stairs, the moans getting louder and louder the closer I get to our shared room
"Xavier" I whimper when I hear more moans and groans from inside of the locked room
"baby, one seconds and I'll be out" he sounds breathless
I hear some shuffling before I decide to just open to the door not waiting for him to get out
my eyes are automatically filled with tears and my mouth is filled with unanswered questions when I see my boyfriend fucking into a girl
I freeze in my spot not being to move as I watch him get off of the bed and approaching me "it's not what it looks like" and that's all it takes for me to slap him across the face
"just give me a couple of seconds to get dressed and I'll explain everything once I'm out" he whispers touching my arms making me flinch away but nod
I go to sit down on the couch thinking of what have I ever done to him so I can deserve this? everyone's words come flooding back into my mind when I came out to them
"what do you mean you don't like sex?"
"you're just young"
"you still just didn't find the right one you can trust"
"maybe it's just a phase"
"you'll get over it"
"I mean imagine never having sex, that's so crazy"
but, then I remember how my boyfriend accepted me, was he just pretending to accept me? was he planning all this? just break my heart
"I support you, baby, sex doesn't matter. you're the most important thing in my whole entire world"
I shiver when I think about coming out of the closet, remembering all the words that were thrown at me
thankfully, my haunting thoughts are interrupted by Xavier clearing his throat making me look at him, scared of what he's gonna say
"look, I'm just gonna say this, I wanted to get laid, and you're never down for sex, dude" he shrugs like it's no big deal, what an asshole? I think
"dude?" I scoff "I'm not just not down for sex, Xavier, I don't do sex, alright? I'm panromantic asexual, and if you dickhead don't like that, then fuck you" I scream at his face making him furrow his eyebrows, I've never raised my voice that much
"I don't get it, how? sex is cool" he scoffs
"it is for you because you're a slut! I'm not like you though, at least I have the guts to leave this mess you call a home, but you wouldn't, because the only thing you care about is sex, isn't that right? you'd do anything to just cheat on your boyfriend of 3 years just for sex" I snap at him slapping his face again
when I realize I left him speechless, those were the last words I ever said to my boyfriend, well ex boyfriend now "I'm leaving" I whisper
I remember running in the dark trying to find somewhere I can stay in till I find an old looking building, deciding to get into it, and see what's in it
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sorry for another sucky chapter, I tried uGh
but, hope you liked it somehow!
I love you all
~ maram (๑˙❥˙๑)
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