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"Calum" Michael whines when I'm not giving him attention, tugging at my blue sweatshirt
"What do you want?" I say, annoyed, rolling my eyes at him
"Why are you acting like that?" He's taken back from the tone of my voice
"Because, you're just acting distant, Mike" I mumble, backing away from him
"How am I acting distant?" He scoffs
"You never talk to me anymore, you're always with other people and you're just starting to fade away more and more each day"
"I don't know what to do when I get too close to someone, Calum. I just distance myself" His voice holds guilt, like he wants to apologise but he doesn't know what to apologise about
"What do you mean? You're just gonna leave when someone gets too close to you? I'm not your friend, I'm your boyfriend, Michael" I mumble, getting closer to him
"I can't promise I'll get better, but I can't not distance myself away, it's just a habit of mine. If you don't want to wait for it to get better, then it's okay" He backs away from me
"I promised you I'm staying" I whisper, reaching my hand to his but he quickly takes his away from mine
"Calum, I won't get better at it, you can break that promise if you want, it will hurt like hell but if it's what makes you happy, do it. I can't do a relationship, I have commitment issues and I'm not gonna end up marrying anyone and I'm not gonna be that kind of partner, I just can't," His eyes start to shine cause of the tears in his eyes he's trying to fight
"What do you mean? You'll just break up with me at the end?" I furrow my brows at him. He never told me this, I always thought we'd stay together.
"Calum, I can't break up with you, I won't break your heart like that I know you love me but I can't do this, I can't promise you forever and I can't be the boyfriend who will stay till the end and I can't be the one you'll propose too and I can't be the one you'll adopt kids with. I can't handle the responsibility of that. I just can't do it, Calum. I'm sorry, you deserve better" He can't fight the tears that are running down his cheeks anymore
"Michael, no. Don't do this to me, please" We're both crying now, silent sobs filling the tiny room we both stand in, feeling like the air got knocked out of our chests
"If you truly love me like you say, I need you to let me go, I need you to let me let you go" He's running out of the room before I can catch him, tell him I'll stay and tell him that he'll get better, but I can't lie to him like that. I can't promise him a forever.
There's always that one line "promise me this is forever" but I can't handle a promise that big.
I drop down next to the white bed, breathing in and out hoping he was here, already missing him. I can't move on from someone that gave me the best years, gave me that much love.
"What's wrong?" Harry frowns, when he comes in the room hearing sobs coming out of my mouth continuously
"Michael," I struggle to talk my throat burning "he broke up with me" I whisper, the words coming out of my mouth barely audible. I don't want them to get out of my mouth, I don't want to believe them at all.
"What the fuck? How?" Harry looks around the room as if Michael would appear and explain everything to him or there's a missing piece of him in this room that still wants a relationship with me, but there's nothing.
"He can't do a relationship" I whisper, resting my head on Harry's shoulder when he sits down next to me
"I'm so sorry, Cal" He says in a whisper, hugging me tightly "maybe he'll come back, love. Don't lose hope," He mumbles but I decide to not believe him
"You guys can't break up, you were everything someone would want in a relationship" Those words are thrown at me like knives, they fucking hurt.
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so, I made you wait for a shitty update, sorry
but, hope you don't hate me oops
but, I hope you liked it
love you all
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