I'm Fine

Chapter 6 Empty

So all prewritten chapters are now gone these are all from scratch if I need to change anything please tell me ;-; also sorry it's kinda late I guess .-. Also I just like the picture
Izukus POV (ÒwÓ)
Numb. That's just how I felt, just numb. I wasn't mad, sad, confused, depressed, or anything. I felt nothing. I felt empty. The doctors said I would be able to leave within a week. At least. I was happy gone discharged. I didn't have to smell the sickening cleanness of the hospital. I dont know why but it smelt like death. Weird. But then I thought.

Where am I suppose to go? I have no one. No family left. Not even distant. The only other family I had was my father... but no one knows where he is. Do they? As far as I'm concerned I'll probably go to some orphanage. But that's if I can catch me. Yep I plan on running away. I have a week so if I run away I can go to my house. I can pack my clothes or at least most of them. Some money I have stashed away and anything else I might need. But I'll try to pack light so I can travel faster. I don't very much know where I will go but I'll figure it out.

I think. But for now I think I will rest since it's 2 am already and my mind might just be jumping to conclusions. Haha I'll go over my plan tomorrow and see if it's good or not.
—Le time skip credits to no sleep—
Izuku POV UwU
I wake up to see it's almost noon. "SHIZ" I yell wondering why I slept so much. 'Well technically I only got about 8-9 hours of sleep so. But still it's now really late and I don't have as much time to think as I would like.' I mumble to myself quietly. I really need to get my mumbling under control jeez all it does is annoy others. I think to myself most likely mumbling it but I'm pretty sure no one is around. Or are they watching my every move because they saw my arms. Oh no this could be bad. No it's not I'll just need to work around it. Yeah. I continue to go over my plan.
-later cuz I'm a lazy beech-
Ok I've gone over everything and it sounds decent. I could change a little bit but I'll do that while carrying out the plan if something doesn't work I got a plan b. As always. And if I get caught... I'm really screwed. I sigh face palming.
"Why did this have to happen now if all times" I say. Wincing while looking at the IV in my arm. It doesn't hurt but it feel weird. Having something in your arm that could be putting drugs inside you. I look at it in disgust wanting to rip it up. Unfortunately, that would make nurses come in and then will watch my every move. I sigh again. I just want to go home to mom. In our cozy little home. I just want to go to my room and flop on my bed and just stay there forever (me too buddy me too ;-;)

But that will never happen I guess. Never again. I sigh for the thousandth time it feels like today. Then for some reason I start thinking about that male nurse. Dan was his name. He was really sweet, I feel bad he had to deal with me though. I hope he can forget about me. If he doesn't I would feel guilty for what I'm about to do tonight. I then notice my sheets were wet. I was crying. I quickly wipe my face getting rid of the tears. Why am I crying. God I'm such a crybaby just like Kacchan said.

I chuckle to myself sadly. Damn I really am the lowest of the low huh. Just some sick piece of trash. No wonder 'god' made me quirkless. I'm pathetic. Having a pity party for one. I laugh at my dry humor. (Shuddap [sorry] but I try ok TwT)

Then I hear someone come in. Probably to check up on how I'm doing. Then I see it's Dan the nice nurse. I'm relived it's someone I know a little and not a total stranger.
"Hello Midoriya" I wince a little at the name.
"Please just call me Izuku" I say not wanting to hear my last name. It brings back to many memories.
"My apologies Izuku but I've come to check your vitals and everything to make sure it's ok and no permeant damage." He says gently. What about mental permeant damage? Well that doesn't matter wait her way. (Mood cough what?) I think to myself.
"O-okay" I say a little nervous.
"Ok then, may I undo your bandages?" He asks. I guess trying to make me less tense which worked I hated when the doctors just say ok let's get started. I think it's rude but then again it's there job. But I'm glad Dan is polite.(he really is uwu)
"I g-guess" I hate my stutter it makes me sound pathetic but sometimes I can't even stop it. I guess old habits die hard. I slowly stand up. Taking off my gown nervously. I hate people looking at me when I undress. It's weird.(ikr TwT)

He slowly unwraps my bandages around my waist and chest. I want to curl up in a ball and die. He then starts inspecting my body (just waist and his chest Izuku has boxers on) checking everything. Seeing it's fine. Then I hear him mumble out 'some of these might scar' Great more scars yay. (Please note the sarcasm)

After he redid my bandages I put back on my gown. Which was very ugly might I add. It looked like the hospital gowns the dead people in horror movies wore. I shiver at the thought.

"Well Izuku some might scar but that majority should heal very well. Also the scars will fade over time." He says sadly almost. I sigh for the 1001 time today. I almost want to sigh at that thought but I hold it back.

"What fun" my voice dripping with sarcasm. I realize what I said.
"I-I'm sorry! I didn't mean it to come out like that" I say waving my hands around frantically.

He laughs a little making me stop panicking. And calm myself a little. His voice is very soothing for some reason I feel like I've felt it once before but I don't know. It's just comforting. Like my moms voice. Like my mom. I read up at the thought I miss her. A lot. It's like my heart was being ripped out. Over and over again. My mind can't comprehend the thought of my mom not being with me.

"But she's still here." Dan says out of the blue.
"W-what?" I say startled out of my thoughts. He walks closer.
"Your mum she's still here and always will be" he smiles a little and points towards my heart.
He's right though. I let a tear fall but no more. No more tears. I was once told, you can cry your heart out anytime but never cry for the same thing more then once. (I think that's how it goes correct me if I'm wrong please)

"Your awfully nice sir." I say sniffling a little. He smiles.

"I try" he says smiling more.

I chuckle a little.
"Well your really good at it" I say giving him a small smile (I resisted the urge to put smol help)
"Thank you, anyway since your fine you should be outta here very soon. I'll leave you alone now" he says still smiling.
"Have a good day" I say as he leaves and closes the door.

I'm alone now. I curl up into a ball. Letting my thoughts consume me.

A/n um sorry it's late I guess I was busy conserving energy I lie I was being a lazy fuck TwT I will do another chapter soon UwU in like a couple days cuz these aren't long ;-; bye
May 16 2020