How to Avoid Heartbreaks

10

Shall I call you mahal, then?

Shall I call you mahal, then?

Shall I call you mahal, then?

His words echoed in my mind and I don't think I could sleep because of it. Gusto ko nang magpahinga ngunit dahil sa epal na sinabi ni Orion, mukhang buong gabi ako tutunganga rito.

Halos araw-araw akong dinadalhan ni Orion ng kung ano-anong pagkain na galing daw kay tita Viella kaya halos araw-araw din akong hindi nagluluto. Most of the time, desserts ang dala niya kaya siyempre, saying-saya ako.

Kahit palagi kaming nagkikita, hindi ko pa rin siya natanong tungkol sa sinabi niya noong nakaraan. My overthinker side wants me to ask for clarifications. But then, I also know that he was just teasing me since he never brought it again. At isa pa, baka lasing iyon noong tinext ako kaya hinayaan ko na lang.

The days passed by quickly and I was nearing the end of my first year. It wasn't easy but I managed with the help of some new friends.

And also, there's Orion who has been pretty much like my boy best friend who always give me pep talks when I'm feeling all tired and overwhelmed with my studies.

We would talk whatever it is that bugs me while we eat the foods he brought. He sometimes gives me advice but he usually does all the listening and just let me vent out.

And so far, hindi naman lumala ang "paghanga" ko sa kaniya at masasabi kong effective nga ang list ko. I guess... I was just really curios about him that I thought I had a thing for him.

When we're together, my heart doesn't beat rapidly like what usually happens before. I'm not having those butterflies in my stomach and my heart doesn't race anymore. But instead, everything calms down. I feel calm... and safe with him.

I'm comfortable when his around. I don't have to change to my fancier clothes when he's around, I laugh my heart out when I think something's funny, I don't do things just so I could impress him, I don't get conscious when I do something weird.

I just... act like my realest self... and it's so liberating to be able to do so.

I like where we are right now—as friends. And I honestly don't want to ruin what we have.

Aalis na dapat ako papuntang university ngunit dahil sa naiisip, bigla kong natandaan ang list. Hanggang rule #5 lang ang memorize ko kaya hinanap ko muna ang folder na pinaglagyan ko niyon.

I want to make sure that I feel nothing romantic towards him so I'm gonna find that list and follow the rest of the rules.

Nahanap ko rin sa wakas ang list at isa lang ang napangtanto ko: hindi ito ang original na copy!

Binigyan ko noon ng tig-iisang kopya ang mga kaibigan at sigurado talaga ako na nasa akin ang original at may kumuha nung akin. I made seventeen rules on how to avoid heartbreaks but the one on the list I have here has only nine!

Since hindi ko naman alam kung nasaan ang original na copy ng list, binasa ko lang ang narito sa akin.

Rule #6 (optional)

Admit It

Before you follow this, assess your situation first.

IF you're sure that what you have for THAT person is just shallow and will eventually fade, there's no need to do this.

However, if you think that it will turn to something deeper and you can't easily get over from it, then, admit it.

Once you admit your "feelings", it would be easier to let go and move on. Admitting it would be like your way of "letting go" sa "paghangang-hindi-mo-inamin".