MINE

Part 54 - The Trip

ARNAV

"I'm going to miss you a lot." I said to Khushi as I held her tightly into my arms, I dint feel like going on this trip without her but even Dr. Roopa had advised me it would be great if I went on my own or with a friend, not with Khushi or anyone from my family.

"I'll miss you too, but I've got so many shoots lines up so maybe not that much." She smiled as she broke the hug and looked at me lovingly.

If this girl hadn't come into my life, it would have been completely different, I wouldn't have been completely different. She came, stayed and made me a better person and I loved her for that.

I know in the beginning I was so mad at her for wanting me to leave my family, but after I did I realized how right she was, those constant taunts, that negativity, and all of them looking at me like I was a disgrace to their name stopped.

I felt free, like I could finally breathe fresh air. It was the best decision I had ever made.

Sometimes we all do have to walk away from toxic people, no matter how much we love them, even if they are our family, because walking away is always the best option.

"Okay guys, your romance is making me wonder why I'm still single, I'm jealous now." Aman interrupted my thoughts.

"Don't worry we'll find you someone in Spain." I teased him.

"You better get me some good stuff from there." Khushi said.

"Sure baby, anything for you." Pecked on her cheek.

"Okay, now we're getting late for the flight, you two have your entire life to romance." Arnav said as he grabbed my arm like a jealous girlfriend and pulled me along, I just waved goodbye at Khushi and headed to board the flight.

*****

"Dude! This is awesome." Aman looked at me excitedly. It was his first time to travel first class and unless you travelled it, you wouldn't know how awesome it was. I just smiled at him and leaned comfortably on my seat.

"I am so excited for this trip." I said to Aman.

"So am I... It's like after ages we are doing something together. The last thing I remember we did together was go clubbing and you saw Khushi there, since then things haven't been the same."

"I know..." I sighed. At one point Khushi was right, I had surrounded my life so much with her and just my family, I forgot to live for myself, now wonder all this affected my mental health so much.

Since I started living with Aman, doing things to make myself happy and balancing everything out, a lot of things changed for good. Dr. Roopa's therapy sessions did seem to be helping me a lot, I had become really calm, I dint get mad anytime I saw Khushi talk to a guy, even she and Aditya completed the project they had together and it dint affect me like it did before.

I mean of course sometimes I got jealous and stuff but I wouldn't react the way I did before, or in simple words, I wasn't as obsessed with Khushi as before.

Right now I was just in love with her and not obsessed with her and I guess, that's how it should have always been, but well, better late than never right?

Sometimes in life we never really realize how important our mental health is to us, we do keep worrying about our physical health but to be actually happy we all need to be at peace with everything around us.

I was so glad I asked for help and Khushi helped me this way, if she never did who knows what I could have done with my obsession for her.

"Have you thought about getting married?" Aman asked out of the blue, I looked at him in surprise.

"No, why do you ask?"

"Just... everything is going great between you two, I'm sure you would want to get married someday won't you?"

"I would, but not now. I'm sure Khushi doesn't want to get married now either. I mean we fell in love everything was red for a while but then the dark part came and I'm still healing from it.

I want to be completely healed, I want to be on my own for a while, do stuff like this with you, live my life like I used to, I just want to get to a position where I can love her and love myself too, when I get there I'd think of getting married to her." I smiled.

"What about your family? Have you ever thought anything regarding them since you moved out?"

"I always think about them Aman, I still love them but now I know that no matter how much I love them, they weren't the right people for me. I tried to change their thinking, I tried to fight them, argue with them but all they ever did was pull me down.

I guess we all are happy this way, I am happy on my own they are on their own. I still miss them though, mom mostly. I mean at least I've been in contact with Ishani and Diya because they dint have any sort of negative influence on me.

I guess I would want to go back someday, see them, visit them, have dinner with them or something. It depends on when the doctor will allow me to."

"You've become very understanding nowadays."

"I know, I can feel the change too and I'm quite happy about it."

"So am I." Aman smiled.

*****

We got a taxi that took us to our hotel after we arrived in Spain, once we were at the hotel Aman and I headed to our rooms. I got my iPad out and decided to facetime Khushi to let her know I had arrived safely.

"Hey." She waved at me with a huge smile on her face. She was seated with Ananya who was also waving at me.

"Hey. So I finally reached. I'm in my room right now."

"That's so good, I can't wait to see all your photos once you go out. I'm so excited for you."

"But I am not. I mean you could have at least asked me to come along, I'm jealous." Ananya pouted.

"Sorry Ananya it's a boy's trip." I laughed.

"Well I would have acted like you guys, sup bro, check this girl out and bla bla."

"Yeah as if you and Khushi invited me when you went to Bali. This is tit for tat."

"Hey, she's the one that wanted to get away from you that time not my fault."

"Okay guys chill." Khushi interrupted.

"I miss you already." I said, I did want her to be here but well this trip was for Aman and me, I was going to get a lot of trips with Khushi in the future anyway.

"I miss you too. Now you need to rest, so take a nap or something. I'll talk to you later, just take care of yourself."

"As you say ma'am." I smiled as I blew a flying kiss to her and then lied down on the bed, I was tired from the journey so I decided to rest.

Aman and I had so many adventure planned so it was good if we were feeling fresh and active for them rather than tired.

I stared at the ceiling of my room silently, thinking about everything that was going on in my life currently, Khushi, my Family, Aman, my treatment and a lot more.

Most of all, I was thinking about getting married to Khushi. I mean not anytime soon of course but since Aman brought up the question I couldn't stop thinking about it and imagining how it was going to be, married to her, start a family with her, have our kids. I knew for sure I wasn't going to give them a messed up like my parents gave me though.

I couldn't wait for that time to come, when Khushi and I were both going to be ready for marriage, it sounded exciting to me already. There was a time when I never thought that I'd want to get married and then I met Khushi and look at me now, I couldn't wait for it to happen.