Begin Again

Chapter 12

Song: Marriage - MoonMoon
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As I drived to work, I was grateful that today was friday, the last day to go to office for the week. After what happened yesterday I wanted to stay away from Blake as much as possible.

I was still angry at myself for trusting him and going with him to an unknown place, I should have known better. What if something actually happened to me there? I could have been in a far worse situation if I wasn't lucky, if Carter hadn't shown up.

But I also hated the fact that Carter showed up. Cause he made everything worse for me, messed me up from inside and was the reason I could not sleep the whole night.

I was also angry at myself for shouting at him like that, for bringing up the past like I was stuck on it. And maybe I was but he didn't need to know that.

I looked like an insecure, frustrated girl who couldn't let go of a past lover where as he acted like he had completely forgotten about our relationship, about the memories we shared with each other.

I still remembered his blank face clearly, I could paint it from memory if I wanted to. It was painful to see something that was once so beautiful and meaningful now forgotten. Like it never existed.

But his blank expression and three small words that he said afterwards wasn't what angered me most. What angered me most about last night was the realization that I was still very much in love with him.

I hated myself for that. Hated that even after five long years I couldn't get over him, couldn't move on. I knew ĺove was strong but I never wanted it to be this strong. I never wanted it to be one way.

I shook my head to get rid of all these thoughts. I wasn't going to think about Carter again. He has a girlfriend, he has moved on, he is happy and contented in his life. I have to stay away from him at all costs.

It took me another five minutes to reach the office. As I rounded the car in the parking lot I saw Blake standing beside his car. Groaning, I parked the car as far away from him as I could.

Taking out my stuff from the car I started walking towards the building, not looking once at Blake. But that was of no use cause within s few seconds Blake was standing in front of me, blocking my way to the entrance.

"THANK GOD your okay!!!" Said Blake loudly. "I was scared you died"

I looked at him angrily and felt the sudden urge to scream or kick him hard. I tried to walk around him but he held my arm to stop me.

"Dont you dare touch me!!!" I said, pulling my hand away.

"Listen, I'm sorry. I never meant for things to turn this way. I really took you there to eat a burger. I didn't know Conor was going to be there-"

"You have great choice in making friends." I cut in hearing Conor's name.

I could still feel his eyes travelling down my body. And I still felt disgusted.

"Conor isn't a friend. He's just an old acquaintance...." said Blake sternly.

"Besides you should have waited for me outside. Running away without a vehicle was more dangerous than staying with me." He said running his hands through his curly blond hair.

"I should have waited for you!? While you played pool and got drunk?" I snapped back.

"I don't drink Eva and I didn't go down there to play pool. I wanted to take them away from you. And I was out in ten minutes." Said Blake seriously.

I didn't know if he was telling the truth. If he really did think of me and wanted to keep me safe.

"I don't care. We are never going to go eat burger again, infact we are not going anywhere together again. Whatever site we select for the articles, we will visit them separately."