With the Waves Again (Baler Trilogy) [Under Polishing]

Baler 47

(This Heart: Coeli)

This Heart

Dumiretso ako sa Resort namin at hinatid ako ni Adrian doon, 'yong pakiramdam na hinahatid ka niya noon sa bahay niyo ganon rin ang nararamdaman ko ngayon.

Hapon na at papalubog na ang araw, umupo ako sa dalampasigan ganito ang scenario namin ni Adrian noong nililigawan pa lamang niya ako.

Sabay naming titignan ang papalubog na araw tapos sabay rin kaming mangangarap.

Nag flashback sa akin 'yong mga pahanon na nakatitig kami sa alon tapos mag pupustahan kami kung mataas ba ito at aabot sa amin dito sa pampang o hindi.

'Yong mga araw na nag hahabulan kami sa buhangin, 'yong niyayakap niya ako mula sa likuran kapag nahuli niya ako, 'yong sabay kaming nag susurfing tapos pag talo ako hahalikan ko siya sa pisngi pero siraulo siya kaya sa labi ko siya na hahalikan.

I played my favorite music that I'm listening every time I feel so lonely and down.

I don't know how but I know it will happen~

I don't know where but I know we'll get there~

We stumble over and over again
But this heart can take it~

Thought it felt like it couldn't help no more~

Pushes pain deeper like it never has before~

And it's been through everything, this heart won't stop beating~

This heart, this heart is waiting~

This heart, this heart is trying~

I bit my lower lip as I letting go of the past, our past to be exact. I'm letting them go not because I don't love him anymore but to change my life, to change everything and take back who I really am, I want to take back the Amulet before, the Amulet before meeting Adrian.

This Heart, this heart is waiting~

This heart, this heart is trying~

Kung inayos ko muna ang aking sarili at tiwala ko noon hindi mangyayari 'to, if I'm really familiar with love and shits this won't happen, kasalanan ko ba kasing hindi pa ako umibig noon, kainis lang kasi unang-una ko 'to tapos tragic pa.

Malas mo naman Mutya, sa academics ka lang yata pinagpala hindi sa jowa.

Mahal ko siya kahit hindi ako nag tiwala kahit may pagdududa ako, pero anong magagawa ko kung ayon ang nararamdaman ko?

Parang ang hirap lang kasing isipin na mahuhulog siya sa isang tulad kong probinsyana in fact that there are so many woman who suites him and not me, there are so many people who's against us, who's against our relationship.

Maraming hadlang na mahihirapan kaming lagpasan kahit handa siyang lumaban, mahina ang loob ko sa ganyan dahil wala naman akong maipagmamalaki maliban sa utak ko, ang layo ng lebel niya sa akin, isipin mo anak siya ng may-ari ng malaking kumpanya tapos ako dito batang paslit na nakikipaglaro sa alon?

Back when I was in Manila I realized that trust really earn, but it's also in you if you want to believe, I've noticed that Adrian is indeed earning my trust when we were here in Baler when the days he's still courting me but it was me who doubting him, it was me who doesn't believe him.