57 "hesitation and contemplation"

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Luna
3:42 am I sighed reading the time on my phone I looked back at the song lyrics I've been working on for hours. I push my chair out silently making sure not to wake up a sleeping stormi I walk out into the backyard I dial Scott's number I rub my tummy as the phone rings "hey it's scott I'm busy right now leave a message" the vociemail said "hi scotty it's me again I don't know what your doing but I'd really appreciate a call back it's been a few days and I miss you" I say I pause "call me" I say before hanging up I stare at the la skyline "what is going on" I say to myself "I'm pregnant and alone" I say to myself "well technically not alone" I say "I just feel like he dosnet love me as much anymore" I whisper to myself as soon as the words leave my mouth my phone rings I see Scott's face flash on my screen I quickly slide it and put the phone to my ear "Hey"he whispered "hi" I say it fell silent "you haven't called" I say again silence "I thought you were mad at me for my comment" he said "are you kidding scott you didn't call your pregnant fiancé over a Instagram comment" I sigh "look I'm sorry okay" he said "yeah you always are" I whispered feeling tears stinging my eyes "David and decorated a nursery for OUR child and I was trying to FaceTime you to show you considering your half way across the country and you weren't on stage or at rehearsals because I was texting Todd and he said you were out" I say "Luna every time you call your either yelling at me or crying" Scott shot back "because your ignoring my calls, my FaceTimes, my Snapchats , my texts my everything I don't know why you can not comprehend that I'm pregnancy scott with a actual HUMAN BEING I just don't think you care that you've left me here to go on a tour you signed up for after I told you I was pregnant. You come home after dancing on your ex girlfriend in a club which I didn't say anything about and accuse me of being too close with a man that literally saved me from my fucking rapist. Then you leave and I try tell you about the baby and I'm accused of rubbing the baby in your face and when you come back you invite that creature into my house where she threatened me and your friends AND hit Toby and Ester then you go radio silent call me every 3 weeks say your I love you's and whatever to keep me quiet and go silent again" I rant "so excuse me for being pissed the fuck off" I say my chest rising up and down in anger the phone line was silent "men are trash" I whisper he stayed silent "your right" he said "I'm sorry lu" he said "I've been distant thats my fault and I'll be better" he said "do you forgive me" he said I looked at my stomach "yes I forgive you" I say it's not like I had a choice "how's stormi" he asked "she's actually just woken up" I lie "oh you better go then" he chuckled "yeah I better bye scotty" I say "bye princess I love you" he said I paused "Luna" he questioned quietly "sorry she's gotten out of bed I love you too bubba so much" I say "night my love" he said in relief "night" I say before hanging up i put my phone in my hoodie pocket "what just happened" I say "I hesitated saying I love you" I whisper "that was fucking weird" I say "I need to go to bed" I say to myself I sneak back into my room putting my song book in my studio bag for tomorrow I put my phone on charge and Crawl into bed with stormi contemplating everything that just happened (the next day) "We'll be gone for the day" I say as I pack up stormis backpack full of snacks , toys and her essentials "what are you doing" David asks
"I think I'm recording a few songs and discussing an album I was gonna release" I say "was" Natalie questioned "are you not gonna release it" she added I paused "no I'm gonna scrap it well most of it" I say they both looked at me. "Stormi time to go" I yell "coming" she said from the room she was playing in "why " David asks "because it's not my life anymore" I shrug they exchange a look "what was on the album"Natalie asked me "an album of love songs isn't me anymore not my life so I'm only keeping one" I say they both cringe "what's that one about" David asked "heath and Mariah" I lie "aww" Natalie said I smile at her stormi came running to me "say bye bye to nat and davey whilst I give this bag to Roman" I say she jumped into David's lap I walked towards the front door Roman opened it for me "hey ro do you mind taking" I begin "no problem miss Davis" he said grabbing the bags Harry the other security guard opening the car doors for him "THANK YOU" I call out I walk back to the living room "you ready stormi" I say she nodded. I picked her up and kissed David's cheek and hugged Natalie "bye guys" I say "bye" they say in sync I carry stormi out to the car and strap her in "miss Davis" Harry said
I turned to them "this is your first official outing with us and stormi" he said "if you don't want to take pictures" Harry said "tell us" Roman said "if you don't want anyone in you and stormi proximity" he added "tell us" Roman said "and" Harry began but I cut him off "I appreciate this I really do but I can handle myself I did do all those stunts and fights scenes myself" I say they chuckle "we know miss Dav- Luna but we want you to be safe" Roman said "thank you guys" I say "now we roll out" Harry said helping me into the car I buckle myself in "daddy song daddy song" stormi said I laugh "okay baby" I say

Author : oooh Luna popped off as she should if you have any suggestions of what should happen comment below :) please read my note bellow!. Thank you guys for so much support 23k reads like whattt oh my god. Love yah 💜

AUTHOR NOTE ; i tried to change the spelling mistake of "in pregnancy" to I'm pregnant about 100 times and it won't change :( ASAP I've released a new murder mystery book called finding finn !!! I'd really appreciate if you could check it out I've been working on it for about 3 months and I'm really proud of it 10 chapters out now !! -author

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