sunflower 🌻, johnjae [ ✔ ]

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"mr. kim, what is their name?
the person your friend mr. lee taeyong told me about?"

"his name is... youngho."

"ah. so they are a male?
is that why you've felt so distressed?"

"no... no, ma'am. i've liked men for all my life, so it was nothing new."

"i see. how long ago did you meet youngho?"

"around april last year."

"so it's been almost a year since."

"yeah."

"what did you feel towards him from the start of your relationship?"

"it wasn't much. i just thought he was a boy having love problems, so i helped him through it i guess.
however, as our friendship progressed, i realised i had caught feelings way too quickly."

"like love at first sight?"

"i fell in love the first time i heard his voice; it was soothing.
it was only until a couple months of talking, when i first met him.
and... i felt myself digging a hole. he was unreal."

"how did it feel when you were around him afterwards?"

"amazing. i didn't know what it was, but i just wanted to be around him forever.
i was so in love to the point where i pushed my friend aside and fought with him."

"why did you and your friend fight?"

"because youngho liked him and i wished he didn't."

"ah. that's unfortunate, i'm sorry for asking."

"...

every time i looked at youngho, i felt upset knowing that the way he looked at me, would never be the same way he looked at my friend.

the friendship was bittersweet and i couldn't comprehend the fact he would never like me, in a million years.

and i didn't want to believe that the efforts to try and make my friend love youngho back, really worked."

"are you saying that because youngho liked your friend, you matched them up?"

"yeah."

"mr. kim. you should know not to ever do that sort of thing,
even if the intentions aren't the same."

"i know ma'am.
i already learnt my lesson. i mean, look at me?"

"... i'm sorry mr. kim... i'll ask you one more important question;
how would you describe your love for youngho?"

"simply, unrequited."

"do you think you'll ever be able to move on?"

"it takes time,
but i know i eventually will."

"do you want to move on?"

"absolutely."

"what do you think will happen if you don't?"

"i think,
i'll die."

"i'll die."

"i'd die."

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hdhdhdh what a shitty story and ending >< i'm so sorry that this took longer than it should've.
but that actually wraps up the entirety of this book! yep! all done now... i'm so relieved.
thank you guys for reading and enjoying! it means so much to me <3
if you have any questions i'll hopefully answer them! because... i'm sure there's a lot of unanswered things hehehe
thank you again!