I never wanted to be married.
I didn't want kids, or a big house.
Honestly with as many rom coms as I've seen, I pictured my life as the side kick friend.
A 9-5 office job,
The same bar every weekend with the same friends.
And a small apartment to myself...
I had such shit luck before that I gave up trying.
I saw a bleak extra life character that I would unfold into over time.
And when we sat together in class that first day I fought against every fiber of my being screaming that I was wrong.
My whole soul ached for a love story.
So when I noticed you see me,
When you started out sweet,
I gave in.
That toxic relationship that I so desperately craved.
The drama and flair and heartbreak and heart swells,
The first time you kissed me I saw everything those movies taught me unfurl into the mess we made together that year.
As time drew on though everything changed...
No more love and laughter.
Just fights and violence.
The nights were no longer loving and warm.
And when you should've been there you weren't.
Everything is done alone now. And I still cry every-time, because you were my forever
And you left like I was never even there.
C.G.
YOU ARE READING
No one is there
Poetrypoetry book. all the things I've written that I could never say out loud. Some topics may be difficult for some people so check for disclaimers .
