Don't Watch Me Cry

Chapter 20

Nali Pov
I just came back home from the hospital and i texted Kasim what happened.. he was so furious with me , he said that he's coming over later to talk and oh gosh

I went into the shower & took a long hot soothing shower and i washed my hair ... i made sure i made the water colder for when I washed my hair

I was in the shower for a good hour just relaxing really

I got out and put on my lotion and brushed my teeth

i just threw on some spandex shorts and a tank top and decided to lay in my bed and look for an outfit for graduation

I got a bunch of college acceptances .. but most importantly I got accepted to my dream college Spelman College . My daddy went there and i know he'd be so proud of me . Im gonna go visit him today and just bring some flowers and just talk to him

I don't visit my dad so often mainly because of how fucked up my life has gotten and so out of control but i know for a fact he's watching over me and Zayne being our guardian angel

I finally found and outfit and i ordered it immediately before it sells out

I got up and started to get dressed to go visit my dad , I just put on some jeans and a regular shit and i put on my slides

I told my grandma i'll be back and i left

I went to the floral shop to go pick up some flowers and I saw some of Kasim friends in there with a lady that looked like she got done crying

"oh wassup Nali" i heard who i think is Rick

"hi .." i said

"Rick" he said finishing my sentence

"yea im so sorry for you loss i really am" i said

"yea im gonna miss my brother man , my mom is really hurting . I hate seeing her like this" he said

"oh i didn't know Aiden was your blood brother im sorry" i said looking down

"it's all good" he said putting his hands in his pockets

"may i send you mom my condolences ?" i asked

"yea sure , mom someone wants to speak to you" he said waving her over

she slowly walked over

"Hi im Nali , im a friend of Rick and Kasim . I just wanted to give you my condolences i am so sorry for your loss . I know exactly how you feel right now . But he is watching over you right now as your guardian angel" i said

"thank you baby" she said giving me a hug

she walked away to go finish looking at some flowers

"Thanks Nali" Rick said giving me a hug also

I just patted his back and went to go finish getting my flowers

I finally made it to my dads grave and i sat down

"oh daddy how much i miss you , im so sorry that i haven't visited you or even brought zayne to come visit you . my life has just been so messed up lately but im getting better i promise dad . But guess what ? I got into Spelman . I know you are doing backflips right now cheering me on . Im proud of myself too ... im learning to be . Daddy i don't think you know how much i miss you . Life would be so different if you were here i swear . I would've joined Volleyball like i was supposed to in highschool and you would've been at every game you ... and mom . yea mom hasn't been so great these past few years i don't know what happened dad . Life just changed when you died ... she blamed herself every single day . I kept trying to reassure you it wasn't your fault but she was so determined that it was . I know you and mom had some argument that day idk what about but im sorry dad that you had to go out so horribly and that we couldn't say goodbye, but i know that you are watching over zyzy and I possibly even mom . You were the light to everyones life and now it feels like pure darkness around us . You were my first bestfriend ever and i wish you could meet Kasim and i could talk to you about him when we fight and argue ... it's so hard you'd know exactly what to say though ... but daddy it's getting dark , i'll be back i promise . I love you" I kissed my hand and placed it onto his grave and set the flowers down and walked away