Don't Watch Me Cry

Chapter 38

Nali Pov

"would you ?" Kasim said

I snapped out of my thoughts , " Kasim i love you but we've moved on , well i'd like to think , Kim is a great girl and you know she gonna hold you down" i said

he sighed , " what  ?" i asked

"nun but we shouldn't have let our relationship get to this" he said

"maybe we're just not meant for eachother" i said getting ready to get up but he grabbed my hand

"Nali you'll always be meant for me , just not our time" he said

he making my head hurt omg , "you love me ?" i said

"of course" he said

"no kasim do you LOVE ME" i said

he just sat there , " that's what I thought , you love the idea of me , hell you fell inlove with the idea of me while I fell for who I thought you were , see this is why we aren't meant for eachother Kasim . it's no-" i was cut off my him kissing me , that passionate deep slow kiss we shared when we had our firt real kiss

I put my hands on the side of his head as I caressed his head while his hands ran through my body , when we let go he just looked at me and I looked at me and I just got out the car immedietly and ran inside

I am over flown with emotions , I don't know how to react , how to feel , what to think

Kasim isn't good for me , we're toxic the more I try to pull away from him the deeper I fall in

I didn't even realize i was crying till I felt something dripping off of my chin . I quickly wiped my eyes as the elevator door opened and I walked to my apartment

Everyone was still knocked out , what a night huh ? I crawled back into where I was before and eventually fell asleep

The Next Day

I woke up and saw them cooking and laughing

" look at who's finally awake" Aaliyah said

i faintly laughed , " well breakfast ot done yet , we literally just started" sage said

I nodded and walked into my room , i need to reevaluate my life , I should've expected that from Kasim kinda , well definetly since what he pulled at his little party , then learning about his lifestyle . He's definetly not good for me , selling drugs and killing and all this shit I can't think straight

And what drives me even more insane is that I love him , I love Kasim with my whole entire heart am I - my thoughts was interupted with Lala walking in

"hey you okay ?" she said closing the door and sitting besides me

i nodded , "talk to me" she said

"it's Kasim" i said

"of course , is that where your sneaky ass sneaked off to last night ?" she said

"when ?" I said

"what you mean when , when we was in the house duhh" she said

" oh yeah , we had a talk" i said

"about ?" she said

"you know it's not really important" I said

"clearly it is if you up in your room all zoned out , but im not gonna force it out of you" she said getting up

"okay okay , bring the girls in" i said

she called them from the room and they came in , " what ?" sage said

"Nali , Kasim you already know" Lala said sitting down