The Lies You Tell

𝕋𝕖𝕤𝕥𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕄𝕪 тяυѕт

" I DO IT!"
Yea I'm blessed, I confess that I'm still stressed🎶
They tell me try new things I'm worried bout my ex
Tryna cheat death, cause it's nothing left
Smoking fucking up my lungs, I can't catch a breath

Random thoughts in my head,
sliding through the wind
Niggas think cause we blood, that we some kin🎶
Loyalty run deep cause it's built in
Stereotyping my people because we dark skin

I react from pain never had love
Ten toes bout a bitch, she was just a dub
Put a smile on her face just because
In the end I regret.. what we was.🎶

As local rapper YB Confession Tape
plays through the speakers

I realized my intentions that got me and Briel back together weren't good, it took me 2 months to speak to her and 5 to come home, I went from making her dinner every night to sleeping under my own cover at the edge of the bed..

My conscious speaks..
"Why be with someone
if you're unhappy T"

I love her It's just hard for me to trust her again..
She don't love me any less, nor treat me and different ,She even gave me a promise ring
Something no one ever gave me
I took the ring.. so I guess that means..
we're together....

Eventually my guards started to fall, the walls started to crumble.. I was proud to be her #1 number  fan again, the first lady! But now!
Any time she gets around a female, the gates lock, I get worried, my body starts to tremble...
am I ready for this again?

"Happy Birthday Baby!"
As I wake her up, to breakfast in bed

"Hauhhh! Thank you baby!
You didn't have to do this"
As Briel stretches her arms out and yarn.

" Yes I did! It's you're birthday grandma!
How does it feel to be old!
Joking with her because she's two years old than me.

"Damnn Bae! that's fucked up"
Briel giggles, cause that's how we played, insulting each other.

"What's your plans for today?"
She was everywhere on her day, the baby of the bunch so she was spoil.

"Gabriel throwing me a party at
the underground tonight. you coming!?"
My mood changed, cause what comes with parties?
Hoes..

I never understood why bitches was friendly.. and Briel didn't make it no better..
I never seen a polite disrespectful muffucka.
Ughhhh!!!!
As I get agitated thinking about it

I fantasize about her more than she think I do..
I just don't trust her
That blow out fade with a tape, make you wanna eat her pussy from the back.. gawdddd!

"Briel I really don't wanna go!
I don't have time for you're hoes!"
bitches pop up from three years ago..
Bringing her food to work.. her dumb ass bring the containers home.. like I don't buy our containers,
so i'd definitely know..

" See you still stuck on the past!
Man that happened when we wasn't together!
That shit don't count!
you say i hide you right?!
So fuck that, you coming!!"
Briel threw 200$ on the bed

"Go buy you a outfit, Be ready at 11!"

"Oop.. yes zaddyyy!...okay I'm coming!"
I mumbled up under my breath
I leave to head to the mall,
since this party is so last minute
While shopping at the north bridge
ran into a someone.