better than me - minishaw

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this story contains swearing, underage drinking, parental neglect/abuse and the f slur uncensored. it also depicts intrusive thoughts and suicidal wishes (but are never acted upon and they're very slight, don't worry)

the abuse in this maybe isn't written in the best way but keep in mind that I'm talking mostly from my experiences (although exaggerated a little bit) and I can't write much about it. this is my comfort fic, I began writing it to distract myself from my life (which isn't really bad but I still wanna die so,,,) so yeah, if you feel it isn't well written I'm sorry, I'm trying my best to pen my feelings onto paper but sometimes it's too hard.

the suicidal ideations are written in by accident, you can see that the mood of each chapter varies by the mood I'm in when I write it. I try to make this more of a happy/comfort fic but sometimes I just can't and it shows in my writing. it's nearly never intentional though but I'm still putting a warning.

now let's talk about underage drinking. don't do it. just don't. there is nothing good about drinking. as a person who's never been drunk and sees drunk kids doing foolish things at parties, I fucking hate it. I'm usually the only sober person and sometimes I have more fun.

I had my first drink when I was 14 (which was a mistake) and I fucking hated it. I feel like this story kind of glorifies drunkenness so that's why I'm putting this warning too. alcohol also tastes fucking disgusting and just like tobi, I'd much rather have apple juice. apple juice is yum.

remember that simon in this is drinking to forget. it's not pretty, he just has a shitty life he wants to escape from and it's his unhealthy coping mechanism. he's on the edge of becoming an alcoholic like his father that he hates so it's not!!! a!!! good!!! thing!!!

he's closer to the age limit which is why I've written it, but harry isn't and in no way should he be drinking at 15-16. he's definitely too young, and speaking from personal experience, it's awful to see your classmates having alcohol problems years before they should be allowed to drink it. they're fucking up their livers at 15 when they should be really be fucking up their health with sweets.

I'm sorry that this ended up being so long but yeah,, it's kind of important,,,