Niam One Shots

Secret

~A/N: Hi y'all! Okay, just a warning, this is really sad. Niall's thoughts are ' dramatic' as some people may think, but his feelings are very strong. I kinda like this, idk call me evil, but I really enjoyed writing it. Hope y'all are having a fabulouis day/night (idk where y'all are) :)  Dedicated to Kjmonkey 'cause ily and your comments make me smile :) ~

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Niall's P.O.V:

"You okay, Ni?" Liam asked.

"Yeah." But that's not what I wanted to say. I wanted to say that every time he touches her, my heart breaks even more. That very time he kisses her, my chest tightens. That every time he tells her he loves, a lump grows in my  throat and I have to force myself to choke back sobs. That every time he looks like her the way he would never look at me, I break inside.

"You seem down lately." He frowns.

"I'm okay."

Liar.

I run to my room and fall on the bed in tears.

If only he knew how he made me feel. If only he knew I loved him.

As I turn my head, I feel that the pillow is damp from my tears. I suddenly hear a knock at the door.

"Ni? Do you want to talk about it?" Liam asks from the other side of my shut bedroom door.

Another tear slips down my cheek as I sit up on my bed.

"Ni, I'm coming in." He states, and opens the door. His eyes look at me apologetically as he sits next to me. He's about to hug me, when I flinch away.

"Please don't." I whisper with a sob.

" Niall, what's wrong?" He questions.

"I-I can't." My voice is hoarse.

"Why, Ni? You can tell me anything, we're best friends."

"Exactly." I sob out.

He embraces me, and the load on my shoulders gets heavier. I feel suffocated. I can't breathe as he wraps his arms around me. There's so much of me telling me to tell him everything, but I resist it. If I did, Liam would hate me and our friendship would turn to dust. He seems so happy with Sofia, like she completes him. If that was only me.

"It's okay." He whispers as tears roll down my cheek.

I shake my head, and move closer to him.

I'm only digging myself deeper.

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I wake up alone, Liam gone. Rubbing my sleepy eyes, I shuffle into a sitting position. Suddenly, I smell something sweet. Guessing it is coming from the kitchen, I get up and walk downstairs. There in the kitchen, Liam is standing at the stove and attempting to flip a pancake, he fails as it falls onto the ledge of the stove, he picks it up just before it falls to the floor.

I giggle at his action, and he turns around.

"Morning, Ni." He grins at me.

"Hi." I sigh and walk over to him. He moves out of my way as I spread pancake batter over the pan, and wait for it to cook.

"Are you alright? You've been distant for the past few weeks." He frowns.

"Yes, can we just forget about it for now?"

He sighs and nods, with a sad smile.

"Okay, this is how you flip a pancake." I say and demonstrate it perfectly, smirking afterwards.

He huffs and pouts.

I laugh at his childish action.

"It's okay, you can eat it." I tap his arm with my elbow playfully.

I make the pancake with his favourite topping: lemon and sugar. "Here ya go, Li."

"Thank you!" He smiles at me with that irresistible smile that I love so much. His beautiful brown eyes shimmer as I look into them.

This is why I distance myself from him, because whenever I'm with him, I fall in love all over again. And whenever I fall in love, I get hurt.

I'm about to leave the kitchen when I feel fingers wrap around my wrist. I look up behind me to see Liam holding it.

"Please don't go, Ni. I miss you."

And no matter how much I hated it, I missed him too.

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We're watching the credits of Toy Story and finishing off the popcorn when there is the shrill of a third guest.

Liam answers his phone and mutters some words I can't hear over the chewing of my food.

"It was Sophia, she's coming around in a few minutes, if that's okay?" He says as he puts his phone back on the table.

I nod. It's not as if I'm going to say 'no'.

Soon enough, we hear the doorbell, and I walk with Liam so I can exit to my room. But not before I see them kiss.