The Seed Of Azrael

Love, Dark

*Love, Dark*

“This is Glenn and Milena. They’re husband and wife. Milena is pregnant with their first child. Dito rin sila nakatira as well as Katherine. Silang tatlo lang ang nakakaalam ng kung anong meron tayo.”

Umarko ang kilay ko at napatingin kay Dark. “You mean pati yung sa akin?”

“Yeah. It’s kind of… complicated, how they knew.”

Narinig kong tumawa yung babaeng katabi ni Katherine. Sino nga ‘yun? Milena? “Ang sabihin mo, Sire, ayaw mo lang ipaalam na siya lagi ang laman ng usapan sa hapag-kainan. Kayo talaga oh.”

Tumawa yung dalawa. Nag-iwas lang ng tingin si Dark.

Hindi pa kami okay as in okay na okay. It’s hard to build a relationship that went downhill y’know. And this relationship is beyond repair. Ewan ko kung paano niya aayusin. Ewan ko rin kung maniniwala ba talaga ako sa kanya. Dahil pagkatapos naman kasi ng pakikiusap niya kanina, I don’t think he’ll ever lie in that state.

Not unless it’s cold acting then maybe.

“Would you mind, guys? Sa garden lang kami.”

“Oh.” Nakangiting bumaling si Katherine sa amin. “Kailangan n’yo ng foods? Drinks? Water? Anything?”

Damn, I’m such a fool for thinking na magkakagusto si Dark sa babaeng ‘to and vice versa. I’m not even sure kung alam niya ang essence ng sex at kung paano gawin ‘yon. How can she effin get into bed with him?

“D, do you want anything?” Dark asked me.”

“Uh… nothing. I’m cool.”

“I’ll just pick out something when we get hungry. We’ll leave you here.”

“Okie.” (^u^)b

Dumaan kami sa back door sa may kusina. It showed a nice garden na may duyan na nakakabit sa magkabilaang bahagi ng dalawang pine tree. Agad akong pumunta do’n at naupo. Kainggit. His mansion just has this atmosphere of being fresh and homey. Not unlike the Crescent mansion. It’s just stylish and elegant and beautiful. But I still love it nonetheless.

“D… what are we now?”

Napatingin ako sa kanya. Naupo siya sa tabi ko and then leaned back down. It made the hammock swing back and then forth. Nahiga na rin ako. Instantly, he brought me to rest on his chest. He held my hand and played with it, wanting to distract himself from the dreading question.

“I want to know a lot of things, Dark. I still can’t understand a lot of things.”

“I can answer.” He simply said, trying hard to hide the fact that he’s nervous.

“Did you ever… had any other girls while in a relationship with me?”

I felt his held on my hand tightening. “I… I can explain, right, Dream?”

“Answer me. Did you ever, Dark?”

“Yes.”

“Why then? I asked you to broke up with me if you’re not being faithful. Bakit kailangan mo’kong lokohin? Bakit kailangan mo’kong pagmukhaing tanga sa harapan ng maraming tao? Bakit kailangan mong gawin ‘yon habang pinapaniwala ko ang sarili kong hindi mo’ko sasaktan? Ano bang ginawa kong mali sa’yo, Dark?”

His breath hitched. He turned to hug me. He buried his face into my neck and hugged me tightly. “Wala kang ginawang mali. Ako ‘yon. Natakot ako. Natatakot pa rin ako hanggang ngayon. Dream, sinasamba kita. Alam mo ‘yon. Natatakot ako sa nararamdaman ko dahil habang tumatagal, nare-realize kong mas mahal na kita kesa sa sarili ko. Na kahit ano kaya kong ibigay sa’yo at natatakot ako na baka kapag iniwanan mo’ko… na baka kapag nagsawa ka na’t iwanan ako, hindi ko na kakayaning mabuhay. Ayokong sirain ang buhay ko dahil sa isang babae. Ayokong masira mo’ko kaya pilit kong inaalis ang pakiramdam na ‘yon. Gusto kitang tanggalin sa puso’t isipan ko pero kahit anong gawin ko… sa’yo pa rin ako bumabalik. I’m sorry I was frightened. I’m sorry I cheated and I made a lousy excuse for that. You can do… whatever you want with me but just don’t… d-don’t leave me. Please, Dream… don’t.”