JEALOUS MUCH?

9. POOLS, SHOWERS AND CARS OH MY!

ALEX'S POV:

after fuckshit got the bad news he went home early to think and gave me an extra house key for when i wanted to come over. i felt bad, i'm the reason his parents may or may not lose their job. i knew what i had to do, but it was the last thing i wanted to do...

"guys i have to break up with fuckshit..."-i said while looking down

"huh, why?"-ruben asked me in a shocked state

"because i'm not gonna wreck his family and their financial state"-i said

"yeah but alex, that's gonna wreck him..."-fourthgrade said

he was right. but i had no choice.

"if both his parents lost their job his family would be broke and struggling with money. i've experienced that first hand, and i don't want that for fuckshit. so i have to break up with him and let that little parasite have him..."-i said before pulling my hoodie over my face to hide my glassy eyes

"how are you gonna tell him?"-stevie asked quietly

"i have no clue"-i started getting choked up

i couldn't keep it in anymore... tears started streaming down my face, i'm a quiet crier so it took the boys a few seconds to notice but when they did they were there for me as always.

"come here"-fourthgrade says as he wrapped his arm around me

"stevie grab a water bottle"-ruben asked quietly

stevie got up right away and tossed ruben the water bottle and ruben handed it to me

"t-thank you"-i looked up and smiled at ruben, stevie and fourthgrade

*9:00 pm*

i skated to fuckshit's, unlocked the door and headed to his bedroom. i knocked on his door and said

"fuckshit, it's alex"

"come in"-fuckshit mumbled

i walked in and he was sitting on his window sill rolling a joint and looking over the city. the view from his room was amazing.

"hey, we need to talk..."-i said while sitting on the other end of the window sill

"alex i love you very much, but i also love my parents very much, but i also love you very much. what do i do?"-fuckshit said while grabbing his head

"i love you so much olan, but these are your parents were talking about, your lifestyle, your house. everything."-i said while looking out his window

it was now or never. i took a deep breath and started to talk

"so i made a decision..."-i said while looking down

"what do you mean?"-fuckshit looked up at me very puzzled and then it clicked

"no"-fuckshit said angrily

"olan we do--"-i started to say but fuckshit cut me off

"fuck alex, i can't just throw away everything that we have. i love you."-fuckshit said raising his voice

"well i'm not gonna let your parents get fired and have your whole life turned upside down"-i said while a single tear rolled down my cheek

i could see olan was in distress...

"so tomorrow at 9:59 pm we- were done..."-i said as my eyes filled with tears

he was silent. looking out his window as tears rolled down his perfect soft cheek. i can't bear to see him like this...