sapnap x reader

hanging out

after a looong time of figuring out the details of when people would meet up, we all decided to rent a huge air bnb in iowa, where you live. tommy, tubbo and a few others didn't end up coming but that's okay since you were planning on flying to europe to meet them for the first time. everyone decided to do it in iowa since that was the cheapest for everyone.

sapnap was flying to iowa first, then dream and george. they were staying at my place until everyone was going to meet up. i was so excited to meet everyone... and sapnap especially. i'm not sure if i like him or not, i mean- i have never even met him in real life, so how would i know?

'whatever.. i need to clean' i thought to myself while picking up my messy house. after a while i get a call from sapnap.

you: "hii" i say while slightly distracted as i continued cleaning.
sapnap: "is rn a bad time"
you: "nah it's fine, i'm just cleaning for when u come over."
"speaking of... do u want me to bring anything over? i could bring snacks or something" sapnap said worried that he should do something to help.

"nooo it's okay snapmap" after that we talked for hours, per usual. falling asleep talking to each other, per usual. but i liked it like that.

                               (time skip)

(sapnaps pic)

after the long  plane ride i finally get to see ammie. walking out of baggage claim and into the huge parking garage, i text ammie

                                ammie ;)

                                                                               you
                         hey, i'm waiting outside of door 9

ammie ;)
okayy :) see u in a sec
________________________________

as i look around i feel someone hug my shoulders from behind me

                                (your pov)

i spot nick waiting for me outside of door 9, like he said. i decided to surprise him. running up behind him, i jump up and wrap my arms around his shoulders. he jumps and turns around

"hi snapmap". i say to him, i couldn't contain  my smile, i was so excited to see him for the first time.

"whoa- oh hii"

he wraps his arms around me. my face turned bright red and i digger my face into his chest so he couldn't see. after a few seconds he try's to pull away but i couldn't stop hugging him. he was the best at giving hugs, i wanted to stay like this forever. after another minute or two i loosen my arms and back away from him.

"heh- hi"  i say to him, worried he would be weirded out since i hugged him so long.

"hii, again" he said to me. i looked down smiling so hard and giggle a little bit. "so should we get going?" he said to me. "yeah i guesss..."

we walked over to my car. after helping him put his suitcase into the trunk, he sits down in the passenger seat. "music?" i say. "of course, you pick ammie".   i play tongue tied by grouplove.  he starts singing along. u loved his voice.

i look over at him while he's singing. he's looking out the window while bobbing his head along with the beat. 'he looks so cute'  

after a 1/2 drive we finally pull up to my driveway. after he gets settled we sit down on the couch. "wanna watch a movie?" i ask him. "yess, how about a horror movie?" he smiles at me knowing i would say no.  "nooo, you know those scare me."   "well yeah, the whole point is to get scared."    "alright alright, i get to pick tho."    i pick the movie called the descent since the reviews said it wasn't that scary. i crawl up in the corner of the couch, nick sitting next to me...

                 (flashback to one week ago)

TW: alcohol, mental illness, eating disorder/food, sexual stuff

'this week sucked' i thought to myself.   i couldn't get out of bed, i didn't even get up to eat. i had a past of depression and i felt another depression episode coming on, hoping that sapnap would help with that. i finally got up to go to the bathroom. i walk downstairs, my feet on the cold kitchen tiles. i look over at the alcohol cabinet. i didn't want to drown my depression out with alcohol, i didn't care though. opening up the cabinet grabbing a bottle of vodka. i unscrew the top and take a big gulp, tensing up as the sour acidic liquid goes down my throat. 'i shouldn't have done that.' was the last sober thing i could remember  thinking. drunk thoughts taking over, i grab my phone and go to messages

nick had recently given me his actual phone number, i yet to have put him in contacts tho... the "name" still remaining as ***-***-****
there were two unnamed people in my contacts, not knowing who's was whos i texted

hi i really want to see you

to my ex jake

                             (***-***-****)

                                                                                you
                                       hi, i really want to see you

***-***-****
wait really? i was just thinking about you

                                                                                you
                                            okay, then come over ;)
***-***-****
on my way

drunk thoughts didn't think anything of it, still assuming it was sapnap who was joking around. i heard a knock on the door, then jake walking in. i stumble into the living room rubbing my head. my vision is blurry, i can barely walk, and i have a raging headache. i need to stop drinking

"n- nick"

"hi ammie" jake says to me, ignoring the fact i asked if he was nick

"ur drunk. i hate when ur drunk."

i say down on the couch. he sits next to me. he puts his hand on my face and smiles. then leans in and kisses me. looks at me "i missed you ammie." and kisses me again. we start making out, i imagine it's nick. he lays me down on the couch and gets on top of me. he slowly moves down. kissing my neck and around my jawline. he slides his hand up my thigh and around to my back. his cold hand snaps me out of it. "stop-." i push him off of me. "what the hell. ur the one who texted me, i thought u wanted this." jake says to me obviously annoyed. "i do..." as soon as he heard that he comes closer to me again, leaning in for another kiss. "just not from you" he backs away and glares at me. "plz leave." "what the fu-." "leave. now." "ur fucking physco amethyst" he says as he slams the door. i curled up crying on the couch. why the fuck did i do that

                      ( back to current time)

"ahhh omfg" i screamed at a jumpscare "haha scaredy cat." nick says as he wrapped his arm around me. i blushed, his arm around my shoulder felt... nice. i look away so he couldn't see my face turn bright red.  "where ya looking?"    "oh- uh nowhere. the- the movie it's scary." i say pointing at the screen.     "it's fine ammie, i'm here with you."  "haha ur such a dork"   i leaned my head on his shoulder.

suddenly i hear a loud knock on my front door....

this chapter is kinda long oops, sorry if it was confusing loll. i am probably gonna update the story later on or tomorrow. also i didn't proof read it-