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Stokeley POV

As I was on top I leaned in for a kiss but stopped myself. Yes I do feel like there's something about him that I just want but I don't want to think that I'm actually gay or bi!

I'm not homophobic, I have no problem with gay, bi, lesbian, trans or any of that at all but the thought that I could be just feels weird.

And it's not just about what I want, I started thinking about what my parents would think of me. Hell even my sister and brother

I doubt sister would have a problem with it. I honestly think she would support my decisions, but my mom  isn't really big on the whole idea of it. And I never really talked to my brother about it. But my dad is definitely homophobic! His ass would probably disown me if he found I simply kissed a guy on the cheek. Now that I think about it... He was pissed with me last time for a similar reason.

"What's wrong Stokes?" Jah asked me.

I didn't want him to think that I don't want him or that I don't wanna do this because I know I do. But I still gotta think bout all this shit.

"It's nothing. But listen... I gotta go. Sorry, bye Jah I'll call you later!" I say as I start to jog to my car.

Jahseh POV

I should've known that he wouldn't want me... How could I be so stupid... Isaiah was right, I am fat and ugly. He's also right about no one wanting me. My mom barely calls me anymore, my brother doesn't talk to me at all, and I doubt my dad even knows I exist anymore. And now Stoke doesn't even wanna be around me, he's just trying to find a nice way to friend zone me I guess...
Ima call Jarad over so we can be sad together.

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As I'm laying in bed I hear a knock at the door and I assume it's Jarad so I go and open it. Ok maybe I'm imaging things but he looks like Stokeley today. People always say it but I never really noticed.

"Hey Jah, you need something?"

I raise my eyebrow "No why would you thing I need something?" I lied. What I actually need is to feel wanted. "Because you never call me over anymore." He's right we don't talk as much as we use to. I still remember how we met and even started to become friends.

Flashback

"Dumbass... THAT FUCK NIGGA ALWAYS TRYNA START SHIT!" I whisper yelled as I stormed into the bathroom to wipe my bloody nose.

I aggressively push a stall door open for some tissue but I see someone sitting on the toilet crying. "Yo you good?" I asked. I honestly don't even know why I asked, it's none of my business. "Y-yeah" he sniffled wiping his nose and eyes.

Well sense I already said something I would feel awkward to just leave. "What happened" I asked. "My girlfriend broke up with me..." he said looking away from me.

"Damn I'm sorry. Come on." I told him as I grabbed a tissue for my nose. "What do you mean? Where are we going. I grabbed his hand as I threw the tissue away.

"We're gonna go do something fun." I told him simply. "What about school?"

"Fuck school, school can suck my dick." I said as we walked down the hallway.

"But-" I glared at him. "Never mind..." he gulped.

Flashback over

I guided him to my room as we sat on the bed. "I'm sorry Jare." I said hugging him. "For what?" He asked hugging back. "For not calling you."

I was so upset about my family doing it earlier I forgot that I've been doing the same to some of my closest friends. And I don't even have many so I gotta hold on to the ones I do. I'm such a hypocrite.

"Jah you don't have to apolog-"

"Life's short you never know when it could end.
I wanna hang out more." I told him still hugging him.

Jarad POV

He pushes me down on the bed and lays his head on my chest. "But I wanna take a nap first." He says.

I never thought this would happen but, my cheeks started getting hot so I'm guessing I was blushing. He just looked so peaceful and cute as he laid there. I kinda liked it not gonna lie. But then I started thinking about Michael. Jah May put on this tough act and all but deep down he's so pure and innocent.

Michael on the other and is always honest. And usually doesn't give a fuck what you think of him. And I love both of there personalities. But right now I'm questioning if I'm catching feeling for Jah.

I've always thought I've had feeling for Michael but I don't really know. Now I don't know what to do.


Prolly the longest I've ever wrote 💀💀💀

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