Desperation

Chapter fifteen

~Y/N POV~

Thankfully my parents said that Jungkook could stay the night in the guest room tonight instead of going home. I would of hated to leave him after what happened earlier so there was no way he was going home on my watch. Although they didn't ask question I did notice that look in my moms eye, wondering what did happen because she's very observant and would know straight away something was up but I didn't want to tell her or my dad. Its between Jungkook and I but if things go bad again I just might say something.

We ate dinner, pretending that everything was okay for an hour or two before sitting off to bed since it was getting late. I went to my room and Jungkook made his way to the guest room.

I didn't like that either.

Waiting in my room to listen to my parents going to bed was painfully hard. I grew more and more impatient by the second. Even if Jungkook and I were texting back and worth it wasn't enough for me.

I almost lost him again tonight and if anything being apart like this was giving me anxiety.

But sooner than I thought I heard my mom and dad's steps passed by room and then closing their door in the room next to mine. Thank god.

The guest room is only across from my door so it was easy access.

It's just I had to wait another ten minutes just to be sure they don't come back out again. Luckily they have their own bathroom suite so they wont have to pop back out for the bathroom and such. I know my parents routine so it should be safe now to leave my room and across the hall, tip toeing and just quickly entering the guest room without knocking. It was too much of a risk to knock just in case and plus Jungkook knew I was coming. I texted him that I was on the move before actually leaving.

Now finally in the same room as Jungkook and closing the door behind me I jumped on the bed beside him as he sat up against the headboard, fiddling with his fingers on his lap and looking down with a sad look on his face.

"Jungkook what's wrong?"

I had to whisper because I'm not taking any chances that my parents could hear us.

"I'm just....disappointed in myself." Jungkook

"Why?"

He sighed softly, moving his shoulders up and back down with his soft sigh.

"That I upset you earlier with my actions. Looking back on it now I don't know what I was thinking. I'm sorry." Jungkook

The way he sniffled, wiping his eyes with the back of his hand and looking away from me by turning his head away I just felt this deep urge to kiss him. So that is what I did. After staring at his face for a good five seconds debating if I should of not, I cupped his cheeks, forcing his head back my way and then leaned over to smash my lips to his.

He kissed me back straight away which was a relief.

I didn't dare pull apart from him and kept myself attached to him, lips moulding together softly as I shifted up onto my knees to move closer to him which only made him grab me around the waist and pull me towards him with so much force I ended up straddling his lap. He didn't remove his hands though, staying rested on my waist as our kiss was becoming a heated make out session by the second.

The longer we kept going, neither one of us daring to stop the room became a blur and yet my body flushed with lustrous heat that I have never felt before but I've never been on this position either. My one hand left his cheek to travel behind his head just to grip on his hair only to hear a low muffled groan come from him.

This whole heated moment between us was getting hotter by the second, so hot I found myself to grind against him but stopped when I realised what I was doing.

"Don't stop." Jungkook

He whispered against my lips before placing them back on mine without allowing me to respond. So I just carried on grinding on him, moving my hips up and down on him. This was getting too much but I didn't want to stop, this was perfect and if anything the two of us need a good distraction.

A thought came to mind, a brave one.

Reaching both my hands down to his boxer shorts that he was wearing. I tugged on the hem of the fabric and his hands immediately took mine but he didn't take them away, he just held them there before we both parted lips, breathing heavily as he now looks up at me in the eyes.

"Do you not want to?"

I watched him gulp but never take his eyes from me.

"I do it's just...just that I've never done this before." Jungkook

I smiled at that. Thank god.

"Good because I haven't either."

His eyes shot up wide, surprised and I just giggled pecking a kiss to his nose.

"Seriously? Like never?" Jungkook

Shaking my head I rested my forehead to his, making sure that our eyes never part from one another.

"Never. I want you to be my first Jungkook, if you'll have me as yours?"

Together we just stared at each other in silence that was growing more tension by the second. His grip around my hands still on his boxers grew a little tighter. This boy was holding so much emotions in his eyes it was hard to tell if they were good or bad.

"I'll choose you Y/n. It's always been you, always." Jungkook

Again our lips matched but more harder and greedier than before, getting straight into it as he now allowed my hands to freely roam his body and down his boxers but only to gasp when I felt him. He's huge. But that smirk on his face when I took the moment to look at him, he knew what my reaction was for. That little sly ass.

But nothing was ever going to compare to this night when we gave our bodies to each other for the first time, feeling everything in the moment that only the two of us mattered and became one. He is my one and only love after all.