INEVITABLE - SEULRENE

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seulgi's sure something's changed.

it's been only a day since she'd last seen her wife--a day after she and joohyun finally crossed the line.

but for whatever reason, her wife feels like a different person now.

is it seulgi, or is it eunae?

or is it the spirits work because she has finally embodied her duties to her soulmate?

it's strange, seulgi thinks. how come her wife's touch on her arm, which she's been familiar with for years, feels foreign to her now?

and when her wife kissed her cheek, she felt... nothing.

"boo, you look different today," eunae comments as they walk out of the airport.

"huh?"

"you seem glowing. what have you been up to yesterday?"

seulgi looks straight far ahead.

sex.

it was pure sex the entire day. sex with her soulmate.

"uh... just... sleep..." she says. "i slept for sixteen hours."

"oh. so, the bear just hibernated, huh?" eunae chuckles. "yeah. you looked like you really did. you look so fresh. i should sleep too once we get back home."

seulgi thinks home seems to be a different place to her now.

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she is a horrible person.

it comes as a passing thought when the asleep eunae unconsciously moves to nuzzle on seulgi's neck.

seulgi runs her palm along her wife's back, thinking, feeling the guilt creeping up her body.

it was wrong for her to sleep with another woman. her wife doesn't deserve infidelity.

but is it wrong for someone to sleep with their soulmate? didn't the spirits themselves will it?

and why does it felt so right to do it with joohyun?

seulgi remembers everything vividly; how she held her soulmate, kissed her, touched her, tasted her--everything felt like they were meant to happen.

seulgi doesn't have much experience with relationships as it's been only eunae since then. but now that she met joohyun, she finally sees the huge differences even in the simplest gestures.

like with the way they sleep. why is it that joohyun's head seems to fit better in the crook of seulgi's neck?

how come her hands seem to be molded just to fit joohyun's face?

whenever she holds joohyun's hands, how did it happen that their fingers perfectly lock like it's their innate function?

it was like they were meant to hold each other, meant love each other.

love.

is it already love or is it just the works of the spirits?

how is it different from the affection she's feeling for her wife?

and what is seulgi supposed to do? it would be unfair to leave her wife--her lover of ten years, her best friend--just because she found her soulmate. but it will be unfair to joohyun too if seulgi would keep their relationship in the dark.

they can't be forever like that, seeing each other once or thrice a week to sleep together.

which she still plans to do, by the way.